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; Sunday, February 27, 2011 00:48
it's amazing how people can reply tweets and not reply your text, isn't it?
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last day of cny ; Friday, February 18, 2011 00:23
i missed eating dinner together with my family for the last day of cny to go for training. talk about commitment. and i'm rewarded with a cold war.
apparently it appears to me that you only make your presence to stick with her, and for that, i shall not attempt to compete with you. if that's your motive then go ahead.
reality sucks but if you can't beat them, join them!
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if only you ever knew how i felt. ; Tuesday, February 08, 2011 00:15
it's only your first year and you're feeling so sian of the team already.
do you know how many times i really wanted to quit?
do you know how many times i walked out of training?
do you know how many times i wished that i never wanted to go back again?
there are people everywhere telling me to stay, to be optimistic and to push the team together again. and though i know that my mind's set and it isn't possible to do so anymore, i'm still here now, standing before the team.
it's coming to three long years being to a blazerian. if a junior feels sucky, do you know how many times worse a senior would feel?
do you know how much i regret my choice to let go of the team once i knew i was enlisting last year because i couldn't bear to think of all of you in camp every night? and i know that was a very bad mistake and i can't turn back the clock.
do you know that i was asked to join another team countless times and i told them that i want to stay for my team till this nationals?
and now i start to wonder whether i've made the wrong decision to stay.
how many of you actually listen and remember anything that i say. everything that i say to you is a joke, isn't it?
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CNY EVE! ; Wednesday, February 02, 2011 11:14
i'm sorry that my blog is very boring because i'm just pure lazy to upload photos.
anyway, it's cny eve today though it doesn't feel like it. must be because of ns. it makes everyday feel so normal.
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