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sick for the upteenth time ; Saturday, February 28, 2009 00:06
something ironic happened today. i ate lunch and medicine then my nausea because worse. it usually becomes better after food intakes.
i was feeling really uncomfortable in the bus today. almost alighted again, before i tried to force myself to continue the journey. in the end, i alighted at eunos link and WALKED all the way to school. serious. it took almost an hour. reached training at 1835.
jasmine and simin were missing, candy and weihao went for dental, so we didn't train routine today. lucky we didn't train also, because i didn't feel i was strong enough to train. learnt dance! first count of eight. i'm feeling lost already. shall practise at home!
feeling slightly better now, after medication. don't know the cause of feeling that way just now. like terence told me, tomorrow is a new start. forget what has happened today. (:
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$72 ; Thursday, February 26, 2009 19:11
i've officially a cummulative upkeep of +-$72 to pay every thursday.
blood test results were negative, so the doctor concluded that i just have gastritis (according to my endoscopy results) and a nausea problem. prescribed me one week's medicine again. have to go back next thursday to review the medicine and get another week's worth.
today's my last day of slacking at home. just looked at cheer's training roster yesterday. it's from tomorrow, and every other weekday till cheerobics on the twenty-second of march.
was supposed to train my 2.4km run yesterday and today but it rained animals throughout the afternoon.
i feel so bonded..like with a contract and nowhere to run.
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teacher review ; Tuesday, February 24, 2009 23:13
i saw your post! ((:
anyway, i suddenly feel like doing a review on the lectures who taught me during the past semester.
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hew ka kian @ advanced mobile computing applications
i comment that he doesn't teach lectures very well as he reads from the slides. our impression is that he has very shallow knowledge of the subject from the way he teaches. but he's willing to help you whenever you need it.
khin ann mon @ database management and system design
when we first stepped into her class on the first day of school, we had our reservations. but she proved that she clearly understands what she's teaching and goes through everything step-by-step. she has somewhat, a caring mind also. something you don't see in everything teacher.
selene goh @ fundamentals of hospitality and tourism business
xianlong used to call her my sister, so i went along with him. comparatively, i like my cds class more in the way they open up during lessons. everyone has their comments.
i remember the very first lesson, she passed the hello kitty bucket of sweets around the class for us so that we would all pay attention. the difference between business and engineering lectures.
clement chew @ internet appliances
he remembers weiliang he enters the class with a running nose. the way he guides us during projects resembles hkk. i express my deepest regret for contributing negligible amounts during project 2, hence putting more stress on weiliang.
an ideal group member, though one shouldn't only depend on others but himself too.
low kah yee @ internetworking technologies
he's been teaching us for two semesters now. among all the teachers, i find him the best not because he does both, lectures and tutorials, but because of his explanation and the way he teaches. he can give digressed examples to make us understand. one of the teachers i'll remember.
isa rafiq @ organisational communication
if you're from my class and you're reading this post then you would be thinking, "finally, favian is touching on his favourite teacher".
many people think i see attention in his class. look at my class. i believe if i didn't attract that much attention during the first lesson, would all his lessons be that fun? would anyone stand up and start the humour going? the answer is no. everyone's just waiting.
i'll always remember him telling the class he has a masters in linguistics and the only one who corrects my SINGlish. i seriously think i speak too much dialect. he also told me i stutter when i talk. i need to change! i want to speak and write only in perfect english.
after the meeting roleplay which i chaired, he asked if i wanted to share my marks with my group members. i hesitated, then agreed. he told me that was noble. i thought it was a group effort.
i think that as much as he says that he doesn't want to teach me career communication, he don't really mind. because we both know that that's not the real me.
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i guess that summarises up everything. (:
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ia GONE ; Monday, February 23, 2009 22:33
ia was relatively easier than itech, if you compare it that way. weiliang said that the trend has been the last paper being easier. same for telsys and wireless.
anyway, exams are over! next on the list is cheerobics. i'm not the least prepared. shall continue to train harder!
just ran 2.4km in the evening. wanted to checkout my stamina and timing. guess i failed badly. took 14.53:67 to complete that distance. thats why i need to train and not just for cheer. (:
i shall continue my reflections..
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my reflections part 1 ; 17:04
i was reading my friend's blog so i came about writing this post.
quoting directly, "friendships start being a friend myself".
i realised that i've been rather harsh with my classmates lately. i make haste decisions on my own because i thought they were being slow. i think that i'm just being impatient. judging from the way they treat me, i don't reciprocate their presence.
i prefer to do things alone.
quoting again, "do you call that independence? or personal preference?
or simply, antisocial?"
i ought to be more friendly, patient and sociable. i can't let anything troubling me fall onto my friends as well because it has nothing to do with them. i should rid this pessimistic mindset out of my head like i should have done ages ago.
lastly, "it's difficult to find friends. i really should treasure the friends around me. not just the present, but also people in the past who have made a difference in my life, no matter how insignificant."
i want to be a better person. (:
i quoted a lot from your blog because i realised i was a lot like you.
and now we both are changing,
only that we're worlds apart now.
thanks for teaching me so much! ((:
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arshavin? ; Sunday, February 22, 2009 15:31
arsenal 0 sunderland 0
watching arsenal play can really be frustrating. no attacking instinct and no one making the through runs. anyway, arshavin had his 60-minute debut yesterday. sent fulop scrambling across his goal for his first shot then forced the keeper into another fine save. other than that, vanpersie missed a shot that any clinical striker should put away.
yay! last paper tomorrow morning. done the practice mcq for ia this morning. 20/30. okayy. i need to study more. haven't seen the past year paper yet, much less attempt. back to my lecture notes! (:
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itech GONE ; Saturday, February 21, 2009 01:06
i saw dawn and jasmine in the bus 15 today but one was too studious and the other too zonked to notice me.
itech paper was OKAYY. seriously. but i think i can wave goodbye to my distinction or even a grade 'a' already. was either too careless or didn't study enough. i was too complacent. i thought by studying 4 times, i had sufficient knowledge.
i WILL do better for ia. no room for complacency. (:
relaxed today. had late breakfast and lunch. met shiyuan for dinner at 2330.
i just checked my funHTBus coursework grades. got a 'b' for the first 50%. i'm somewhat satisfied. though i think with my end-semester test, i'll get a 'c'.
ohwells.
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jobs anyone? ; Thursday, February 19, 2009 21:04
i have incurred serious debts of more than $300. if anyone has jobs to recommend, please tell me. i don't mind working 24/7 a day but please, make it decent. (:
going through itech for the fourth time now. i just lost my studying mood because my mother came me and asked me, "why did you have to pay $285 to see the doctor?", and followed by, "if it's that expensive then don't see anymore.".
listen, i've already dragged for six months. i've already incurred enough debts for me to just say and pull out now. so i'll have to go all the way.
anyway, gerald was quite convincing and i somehow have some hope in this doctor.
cheerobics faster come and go. i seriously need to work or you'll see me eating grass everyday.
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the oc season 5? ; Wednesday, February 18, 2009 13:05
my whole body is aching from head to toe so i've to postpone my gym session for today to tomorrow. and my legs are that WEAK. i seriously need to train more. :(
was reading through forums and suddenly rekindled my love for the oc. why isn't there a season 5? all because of fox.
larry was telling me about heroes season 4 yesterday. tried finding episodes but to no avail. yay i have something to watch after the exams!
haven't started studying itech yet. it's either i double mug today or tomorrow, or i can wave goodbye to my dream of getting an a for it this semester.
the picture doesn't seem to be motivating me. i wonder why. (:
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muttons at midnight valentine's day special ; Tuesday, February 17, 2009 14:38
i should set my alarm back to 0805 instead of 0905 because i always wake up an hour later and waking up at ten plus wastes my whole morning.
training was only two hours yesterday but somehow my whole body's aching now. and i'm doing b-toss with terence for the nationals.
ken showed me this link for the muttons at midnight valentine's day special. seriously think they're funny. i used to like 98.7fm because there was jamie yeo. now i like them again because there's soowei! (:
-->maple at midnight vday special<--
and saw this at jarred's blog. watch this only if you miss playing final fantasy and the world is coming to the end so you've nothing to do.
-->college saga<--
training again at 6 later. and i've not started studying itech yet. i hate my indiscipline.
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happy valentine's day! (: ; Saturday, February 14, 2009 22:44
valentine's day is an excuse. why do you choose to follow and pay extravagant fares and queue endlessly for your meals when everyday can be actually valentine's day.
okayy, that sounds biased. i just thought of it when i should be studying.
thanks for the wishes! (:
i think this picture is rather cute and hopefully, inspirational.
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end of 2.2 ; Friday, February 13, 2009 12:57
i'm so glad that 2.2 has finally come to the end. cleared our final project ia, with no questions asked yesterday.
it had been a hectic semester for me. it shows my incapability to juggle projects and cheer together, highlighting my recent quarrels with my group members. but it's all over now.
remaining highlights would be my main exam papers.
20 feb - internetworking technologies @ 1430-1630
23 feb - internet appliances @ 0930-1130
after that, it'll be cheerobics. it better come fast because i so desperately need to work and i actually have work starting right after my main exam ends.
as the semester draws to a close, weiliang once again joins me on the "sick" list. it's always the two of us. (:
and, today's friday the 13th!
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; Wednesday, February 11, 2009 12:42
for the second time in a year, i've traveled halfway to school, only to turn back because i felt my stomach was giving up on me.
i really don't know what's wrong so someone please tell me.
hopefully the doctor i'll see tomorrow will diagnose what's wrong and help me to a full recovery because the last six months had been real bad. and i didn't know it started since september until my doctor told me.
not going to school today means i'll miss out on the ia codes. hope to get them from weiliang tonight.
candy injured herself on monday because i failed to catch. weihao injured himself on tuesday because i still continued after he said wrong timing. my catching is getting worse by the day.
there's something in me that deteriorating as the days pass and there's nothing i can do about it.
if i can't even take care of myself, how do i dream that i can take care of you?
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last day of the chinese new year ; Monday, February 09, 2009 23:00
there will come a time where i'll have to choose between my friends, family and cheerleading. because it almost happened today.
lesson ended at 4 today. i walked to the sports complex intending to tell them i wouldn't be going training but i changed my mind upon reaching there. went to meet weiliang, khairul, xianlong and faizal. took 293 together to tampines interchange where i decided to go back to school.
i was caught in three minds. my friends waited for me and i told them to go home themselves. my family wants me home early to have dinner together because it's the last day of the chinese new year and i can't even fulfil that. i went for training and was supposed to leave by 8 but procastinated and only left at 940.
i don't know whether i should be proud to tell people i'm a cheerleader. after many months of training, i can't even catch and support someone properly. let's not talk about helping other people to support.
to date, i caused candy to be injured twice. once during preparation for open house where i kneed her back while cradling and second, failing to catch her shin during dismount just now. and the mistakes just carry on.
i'm supposed to reduce the weight in my head because i've cleared dmsd lab test today but now my head's in a total mess and i've no idea how to clear it.
i don't even know what is it that i really want.
anyway, IT'S WEILAING 21ST BIRTHDAY TOMORROW!
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garfield! ; Sunday, February 08, 2009 13:31
i've decided to go borders more often or whenever i'm free because they've a very big collection of garfield comics! i think it'd take me a few weeks to finish reading all of it.
i was thinking about this. i stay in school rushing projects almost everyday till i've to take the last bus home. and when i use my weekend to relax and play games, my parents would come into my room and complain.
why do you think i reach home after midnight everyday for. you think i like to torture myself till i don't get enough sleep and feel exhausted the next day in school? or should i get my friends over to my house to do our projects here till the wee hours of the morning before you think that i really do work.
there goes my weekend. i lost my mood again.
i will do it.
never try, never die. never die, never know.
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one tree hill ; 01:19
when i first came across "piccadilly road" near selatar airbase, i thought i was playing monopoly. i always imagined that the names you find in your games are all created and not real.
then when my father was driving along orchard boulevard just now, we passed a side road called "one tree hill".
i remembered i wanted to blog on something else but i can't remember now. :(
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; Saturday, February 07, 2009 00:58
i was supposed to reach school at 12 but i woke up at 1105. and i realised that i'm never early or punctual for meetings on friday. apparently it registered in my brain as a rest day.
reached school at 1450. went to dmsd lab to meet weiliang, russell, khairul, faizal and jarred. ia lab was full, so we waited. xianlong came after that and we continued the waiting game.
settled for our usual block 11 after deciding to half give up on a chance of finding space in the lab. ended up playing heroes 5. faizal and xianlong left earlier.
walked over to business to meet bryan and jasmine when we were deciding to leave. supposed to eat with my class but ended up going back to bigmac centre to eat.
anyway, i didn't know that i could chew gum for two hours. felt great when you have nothing on the bus so you just chew. only realised that my teeth were very tired when i sunk them into the beehoon.
okayy, i'm continuing the trend of reaching home after midnight. and i took 22 last bus even when i did not have training today.
highlights of the following week:
09 feb - dmsd lab test
10 feb - orgcom meeting test and weiliang's 21st birthday!
12 feb - ia project presentation
14 feb - valentine's day (hmm..)
i want to be a perfectionist and i tried so hard but it just doesn't seem possible.
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tomorrow ; Friday, February 06, 2009 01:40
i'm starting to realise that my day ends after midnight everyday. this is because when i post 'today', it's already into the next day.
cleared dmsd project today. the one which i was the least stress about. clementchew didn't come but my group couldn't present ia today anyway.
went training today. practiced on the o'jump mat. decided to learn backtuck somehow.
i survived today! shall only attempt doing shoulder-stand on mats. (:
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3-in-1 ; Wednesday, February 04, 2009 23:52
today was a killer day. i was so obsessed with amcapp presentation in the morning that i didn't have time to study for my other two tests.
amcapp project presentation:
i was overly nervous but lucky i still managed to get my facts right. thanks to xianlong for helping A LOT throughout the whole project time.
amcapp quiz 2:
i stared at my textbook and the past year quiz 2 paper an hour before the quiz. if i had purely memorised everything, i would have gotten a high grade. instead, i tried to understand. as a result, i ended up messing all my facts. think i screwed that paper.
funHTBus end-semester test:
studied with xianlong for about five hours before the paper started. regret not attending the last lecture. missed out on the tips. i think i wasted much time studying everything and not focusing on the key lectures. flunked this paper also. hopefully i'll pass overall. failing a cds feels weird.
missed training again on tuesday. was reminded by jasmine and simin to go training tomorrow or they can't do anything.
still, i feel that i can't afford to go training the night before an important project presentation. i was telling xianlong this and what he said really made sense.
if i don't go training now, everything that i've trained for in the past 8 months would go to waste. and he replied this. if you go training now, all that you've studied in the past 2 years would go down the drain. which would you choose?
i admit that for this semester, the two of us had misunderstandings. however at the end of the day, i realise that everything that he said or done, he has a reason for it. and it is i, who might have been wrong all along.
anyway, i'm feeling more relaxed after clearing 3 important events today. dmsd presentation first thing in the morning tomorrow. i better not screw up. and then it's ia. sorry people, but i don't think i can complete by tomorrow.
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repercussions ; Sunday, February 01, 2009 12:49
after spending close to two years studying infocomm in tp, i suspected that i've been on the wrong path from the start and i'm beginning to suffer the repercussions now.
no matter how hard i try, i don't have the drive to get my work done. i didn't feel this way when i was studying accounting in ite.
i can sit down and tell myself that i need to get the work done. i can get things done diligently for the first few hours but once i get distracted, my mind would be totally off. and i know that i'm not the type that has perfect discipline and control over myself.
okayy, thoughts aside.
i went to mrs keong's house with terence yesterday. realised that i can reach her house in 30 minutes from my place.
there's a reason why i won't consume much alcohol when i'm at other people's house. melvin was a good example yesterday. i can imagine what everyone will do when we see him for training on monday.
this week would be the most busy week of this semester. amca and ia project presentation on wednesday and thursday respectively. i think i'm going to skip training on tuesday.
moving to soccer now.
if arsenal doesn't buy arshavin during the january transfer window, i can prepare to see them playing the uefa cup next season. watching how they slip again to west ham last night, i have my doubts of them being a top four team.
okies. i shall continue doing my projects. the minimal i can do from home already. (:
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