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walk-to-hand! ; Saturday, January 31, 2009 00:06
i somehow know how the remaining two weeks of school would be. i'll probably reach home after twelve midnight, whether i have training or not.
looking at this week. monday and tuesday is the chinese new year. didn't go training on wednesday and thursday and reached home almost one. went training today and almost had to walk home from serangoon central.
dmsd, ia and amca. the three killer projects now. even the smallest parts add up to a big total.
went cheer today. there was ten people present mainly
justin, larry, xueli, suhui, jasmine, candy, weihao, gary, melvin and me.
candy, weihao and melvin left at 2000, so it was left with 7 people. anyway, i did my first walk-to-hand today with suhui!
i need to visit the gym more often if i want to achieve what i want. my hands were shaking too heavily.
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needs discipline ; Friday, January 30, 2009 00:34
my 100% cheer training record since the standard chartered marathon has been shattered. 22 consecutive training sessions without missing a single day.
even by missing training, i still reach home as late. i just reached home ten minutes ago. stayed back to do ia project. supposed to go training at 8 but had sore eyes so i decided to rest until i realised it was too late. walked to the sports complex, changed and saw that it was 2035 already.
anyway these days, who bothers listening to your explanation? who actually believed that i've been feeling unwell for the past five months and showed that extra concern?
this aside, the next and last two weeks of this semester would be the busiest days in my 2.2.
2 feb - dbms quiz 2
4 feb - amca project submission and presentation
4 feb - amca quiz 2
4 feb - funHTBus end semester test
5 feb - ia project submission and presentation
9 feb - dbms lab test
11 feb - (hopefully) dbms presentation (completed)
12 feb - (hopefully) ia presentation (completed)
main exam papers are on 20 and 23 february. and i still have to squeeze in time for cheer trainings. i seriously need some discipline here.
supposed to reach school tomorrow at 10 to do dbms, ia and amca but i've got ndc appointment at 1030. hopefully there's minimal waiting time so i can reach school around one. mass projecting till 7 then head over for training.
supposed to go chai chee to consult gerald's family doctor but he'll only be back next month. i shall try medication again, because for the past few days and nights, i think my stomach's getting worse.
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c-new year day 2 ; Tuesday, January 27, 2009 22:21
yesterday's visiting was more of seeing our relatives. people related to you. today's theme was still visiting, but not people who are that CLOSE to you. maybe those that you don't see in your everyday life.
lunch was at my father's superior's house. i love that place. it's big enough for you to have nothing else to wish for.
anyway as much as i tried to control, my nausea acted up again. felt uncontrollably horrid. my escape route almost ended up in the three german shepherd's path in the backyard.
had the front view for lion dance performance, watched the twins effect and ate one of the best home-cooked chicken rice.
saw this girl who was quite pretty. felt tempted to talk to her but i always see her with this guy who is either her boyfriend or brother. didn't want to give people the wrong intention so i gave up. but actually you could say that i didn't dare to ask.
we went to my auntie's house after that. reached around 1815. one of our latest timings because we usually reach around five.
i ate lesser than the previous years because of my stomach. it's possible to force myself to live with the condition, but it's hard to avoid everything.
saw this TWO girls there that were..okayy, quite nice looking. thought they were sisters because they seemed quite close but they were actually from different families. again, i backed out.
this year's cny reminds me of my secondary school days where we have to go home early because we have school the next day. and today seems like a perfect example. 0800 class tomorrow.
my life is like a soccer game.
i have my chances but i don't take them.
i rue and regret only after i missed a chance.
quoted this from connie.
if you want something, go for it.
if you hesistate, forget it.
i've tried to practise it but to no avail..
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c-new year day 1 ; Monday, January 26, 2009 16:31
i noticed something about this year's chinese new year when everyone goes visiting. the car population has increased tremendously. there's hardly any parking lots available now.
i was left thinking about everyone who was eager to take their tp and drive. it's true that's it much more convenient, but there's going to be major car congestion if everyone drives.
we only went for five hours of visiting and i'm feeling tired already. my eyes are giving me the feeling that they'll close any moment.
i initially wanted to picture my themes for this cny's attire but couldn't find a camera and i was lazy. (:
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cny eve ; Sunday, January 25, 2009 12:42
something's not right about me. i think i'm having exhaustion again because i slept for 3 hours in the afternoon yesterday and i felt even more lethargic after that. it was as if my whole body was strength-less. i couldn't even tear open a packet of tissue.
i've been having weird dreams in the past few days. somehow seemingly very negative. i thought it could be due to high stress levels, from what i read on the internet. then again, i still have no idea where could i be getting ANY stress from.
anyway, it's cny eve today. hopefully things would be better! (:
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fridayBLUES ; Friday, January 23, 2009 15:53
i swear i'm super lazy to go back to school on a friday, especially when i've no lessons on that day.
i had to practically drag myself to pack my bag and leave for school just now. slept throughout the bus journeys.
decided not to go up to the lab because i wasn't wearing the proper footwear and there was a teacher in the lab. or if you prefer to hear my other reason, i'm just pure lazy. then why did i bother going to school for? because i'm more disciplined outside my house.
still have to shop for cny clothes ALONE later. it's not that bad because you won't have people tagging behind and you're actually quite free. however, i only shop alone when i know that i'm not going to spend long hours walking or it could really be a bore.
maybe meeting shiyuan to go to chinatown after dinner. expecting to squeeze amongst masses of people.
okayy. back to doing amca at block 11. i took over brandon. so it's my usual place now. (:
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last bus! ; 00:50
i took 22 last bus home today! for a moment, i thought i missed the last bus because the schedule said the bus would reach at 2334 and my time read 2340.
anyway, i like night journeys! took less than 40 minutes. went all the way to amkhub because my laptop was still hibernating. couldn't even finish watching my 53 minutes sonic the movie! (:
trainings are ending later and i'm reaching home earlier in the morning. i think i'll suffer from exhaustion soon. zz.
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funHTBus Presentation!! ; Wednesday, January 21, 2009 20:46
the whole day in school today is one of the most stressed out days i'll go through this semester.
first up, amca. i spent 30 minutes staring at the brick code before sleeping at 0155 this morning.
secondly, funHTBus. project presentation today. first week and group to present. formal wear and tie in LT26. only the second time presenting in the lecture hall since psps last year.
i think my cds presentation went quite smoothly. it feels so much better when you know what you're presenting because you wouldn't need to keep staring at the screen and hold cards. quite satisfied with myself after that.
okayy. major thanks to kianteck, who did much of the project proposal and powerpoint slides. i must say that i've been quite slack and took things for granted but my group members always stood by me. qingling and xianlong have also been nice group members and i'm pleased to have such a wonderful group!
i know something up there sounds contradicting. but i realised that for this semester, i don't really have a choice. even if i don't want to, i still have to.
it's worth a try, even if it seems impossible..
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LATE nights ; 01:46
i've been reaching home after midnight for the past two nights of cheer training. it's seriously very tiring if there's an early lesson the next day.
for example, i've an 8am 3-hour lab lesson later. project interim for that, followed by h&t presentation in the afternoon. i wonder how free i'll feel at 4pm.
formal wear and tie with an exhausted face. feeling so tired just by going through my presentation slides and writing my own notes, then understanding amca codes.
i think i should sleep soon because i'm starting to feel hungry.
updating the list of my injuries.. sprained ankle and pain in both my arms near the shoulders. and that's for not even being a base.
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hypocrisy always ; Sunday, January 18, 2009 23:42
i sincerely hope that this post would not be filled with expletives.
those who know me for years.. ever wondered why i preferred to know nothing at all. when people argue or quarrel, i can be there to console and help, but i won't poke my nose into other people's business. the only things i hear are what people want to tell me. i never ask what has happened.
one day this person comes along. i thought he was all i ever knew of him. then someone told me that i was being made a fool of. all along he was being reluctant and nice. you just wanted to help.
how do you define a friend. a friend in need is a friend indeed.
there's nothing wrong with that. in fact, i would have regarded you as a samaritan, always willing to help.
in your eyes, i'm someone who doesn't care about projects and deadlines.
i know that i lack discipline and i've placed my commitments somewhere else. that doesn't mean i don't care about my modules.
anyway, i got so stressed over this that my stomach's feeling weird. i felt knowing that was totally unnecessary and a total waste of my time.
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philosophy ; Saturday, January 17, 2009 00:09
weiliang knocked some sense into me just now.
i've always believed that everyone's special in their own way. it's not that you are more stupid or dumb. or that someone is smarter than you.
everyone is born the same way. it's how you want to change the fact. perhaps i could have excelled in my grades if i've put in more effort, but i shown that i rather place my commitment somewhere else.
i've seriously no idea that this post was going to be so philosophical until i've typed this. anyway, i've said my piece.
thanks to weiliang. i know what to do from this very moment. (:
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no friday off ; Friday, January 16, 2009 16:29
i shall try and forget all the things that i shouldn't be remembering anymore.
cds meeting at 1 today. was walking to the bus stop when i saw 22 and 24 moving away. so i tried taking 853. didn't know where to alight and ended up at kallang interchange. was at the mrt when xianlong told me that the meeting had ended.
lucky i still had to go to school to do advanced mobcomp. reached school around 230. took the train for the first time this year.
and apparently i'm still in the lab. was too engrossed playing starcraft that i forgot the time and only realised when it's so late already now. missed my lunch. my stomach's like..
training yesterday was slack because there were people missing everywhere.
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world of my own ; Wednesday, January 14, 2009 23:23
i should start being myself.
not being influenced by what people say about me, make my own decisions and not follow what people say.
it's very common. peer influence. everyone says this and you follow. especially your classmates, because they're the people you come in contact with everyday.
favian. i'm going to have my own mind. (:
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trustme ; Tuesday, January 13, 2009 23:42
you've got to start trusting me.
i know that sounds like mr bennett talking to claire in heroes but i'm serious. anyway you know i'm referring to you then you should know what i'm talking about.
i think cheer conditioning is more effective than going gym. running backwards, doing standard pushups and abs exercise is enough to make my arms ache.
and i realised that it's not cost-efficient to cab home myself. it's around eleven from tp to amkhub.
my cost-cutting scheme doesn't seem to be working. i shall limit myself to a certain amount and give my atm card to someone else so i'll only have enough money for food! maybe i should start next week. seriously, i'm spending money worse than drinking water.
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the little nyonya: the final chapter ; Sunday, January 11, 2009 22:33
i have no idea why did they decide to show 5 minutes of the 'changed' ending. looks so dumb. my mother thought they'll change the whole ending and present it in a one hour episode.
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lovesmycousin(: ; 11:16
my cousin came over yesterday! missed her so much. :(
it's like we only see her once a year because she's studying in the us and only comes back during her 'end-of-year' holidays.
apparently last year she also came back on the last day of tp open house.
no photos because we both aren't photogenic.
and i'm trying to host the performance video because it's 50mb and in quicktime format.
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tp open house day 2 ; Friday, January 09, 2009 20:20
i must compliment that today's open house performance is a better and more confident one compared to yesterday. the only thing is my sharpness could've been improved.
i think i should start doing all the random things. then i wouldn't feel so bored after performances like idling and doing nothing.
shall upload the video when i find it. anyway, finally a rest day. training from monday to thursday is actually quite tiring.
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open house day 2 ; 09:29
i messed up yesterday's performance and i'll make it up by doing well for today's performance. mistakes cannot be tolerated. (:
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day 4 of my (whatever) ankle ; Tuesday, January 06, 2009 10:55
i just thought that i should remove the links of those people who decided to put their blog on restricted access. if you want me to link you back just drop me a message. (:
training later. it's going to be another long day. and i'm late again.
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day 3 of my (whatever) ankle ; Monday, January 05, 2009 23:34
i think my ankle is feeling better from the medication. unfortunately something happened to the whole of my right leg and there's a weird and pain feeling when i move or bend it. :(
wore my 2nd team temasek shirt for the first time because it was team temasek day and my original one was in the washing machine.
missed the final of the little nyonya today! didn't really think much of it either. unless youtube marks down the user for copyright infringement then i'll be damn sad.
learnt dance today. did a Hurkey? today. i have no idea how to spell it. anyway, i'll be going to do that for the open house today. better do well!
i remembered my 4th new year resolution!
4. i want to sleep before 12mn everyday unless i reach home after that, then i'll have to sleep within that hour. (:
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day 2 of a swollen ankle ; Sunday, January 04, 2009 18:55
i'm going to wear shoes with a swollen ankle tomorrow! training days from monday to thursday.
i've finished episode 26 of the little nyonya! too bad i'm going to miss the 'live' version on tv tomorrow because of training. i must say that this is one of the best ever channel 8 dramas. be prepared to see them grabbing awards at the next star awards!
another new year resolution:
3. i must cut down my extravagant spending
i've already reduced my bank savings by half over the past few months and i don't know how long is the remaining going to last. continuing this way isn't an ideal solution. :(
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sprained/ twisted my ankle ; Saturday, January 03, 2009 23:54
i forced myself and suprisingly enough, i managed to wake up at the first alarm of my phone. woke up at 0705, dragged myself to get prepared and my father decided to give me a lift. thinking of it now if my father didn't fetch me, i wouldn't be late because training started at 0935.
anyway, i got off to training on a horrible note. sprained/ twisted my ankle while carrying mats and it hurts so badly that i can hardly move. open house is on thursday. lets think.
training ended 1230. skipped h&t tutorial. actually i didn't want to go anyway. was feeling kinda sleepy and hungry. did project until 4+ when my laptop battery gave up on me.
went to see a chinese physician. waited for more than 20 minutes for 88. missed 3 265s in the process. in short, i was late. and for running after the train, my stomach went into an uneasy state.
met shiyuan, my sister and her friend at nee soon south community centre for some marshall event. my aching ankle didn't make the standing and waiting any better.
i just reached home. i've got to rush h&t research and powerpoint slides. my ankle is hurting like i've never felt pain before. life just doesn't get any easier.
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new year's day ; Thursday, January 01, 2009 22:40
i woke up late today, and the rest of my day's schedule went crazy.
SUPPOSED TO wake up at 8 and go cycling with my family at east coast. in the end everyone woke up at 930. prepared, had breakfast and reached there at 12.
SUPPOSED TO meet gerald at 12. changed to 1 and to 230. guess what time i reached?? 330. i can't remember a time in my last 20 years that i let someone wait an hour for me. it's always the other way round.
SUPPOSED TO reach reach larry's house at 6. was stranded up at centrepoint because of the rain. toured round orchard in an attempt to get a shirt changed, only to know that addidas is owned by 2 different "companies", singapore and wing tai. didn't go larry's house eventually because it was too late.
saw this 'tree' at suntec today.
damn cute(:
i initially didn't want to upload this
and presenting.. the various colours of the singapore flyer!
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happy 2009! ; 00:27
wishing all my friends and the people out there a happy 2009!
actually i haven't really thought of new year resolutions yet but here's two.
1. always be in good health (from my father(: )
2. score well for my current semester to make up for my mistakes during the term tests
i came across this thought that the marina barrage is an ideal spot to watch fireworks from the esplanade and floating platform. maybe i'll visit there soon!
it's a new year. new beginnings. new everything! (:
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