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last blazers training. ; Friday, June 25, 2010 01:11
i've officially attended my last training with tp blazers. it's been two and a half years with them. all the pain and anguish, fun and laughter, and the memories we've shared with three generations of cheerleaders, i'll always think of all of you during my next two years serving the army.
every new batch of cheerleaders bring different experiences, unique to themselves but they share the common goals.
i shouldn't have made the short 30second speech today because it made me more sad after that. but nonetheless, i said it and it already happened so no point regretting now. i really want to see that you guys have matured after 9 weeks, when things get harder and dangerous, and you give the seniors the respect that they deserve.
anyway, i'm left with the saturday senior's training and sunday's taiwan workshop. my goals for the weekend would be PARTNER STUNTING. hopefully i'll make a breakthrough somewhere to leave an impact on myself before i enlist. (:
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; Sunday, June 20, 2010 02:29
my blazers senior dinner felt like the second cold war. but it's not like i really care. i know standing on both sides is hard, and i guess i already know which side i would stand on now.
it's exactly on more week to enlistment. and i know that some things would happen beyond my control. and i guess it's up to. us? or fate. i don't know either.
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NATO. ; Friday, June 18, 2010 00:47
i know that this is not a private blog and anyone could read whatever that's written here, but i'm still going to say this. ten more days and i'll be enlisting, it's time i get this load of things off my chest and lessen my burden.
today i learnt that we're greedy people. there is no highest position in any organisation. everyone would climb above you and assume their own authority.
today i learnt that some people would only ask you once, and they would ASSUME everything else as that's the way how things work.
today i learnt that i've to resign to the fact that i no longer hold that high position, otherwise i would be the first to oust you out.
today i learnt that the term, "NATO", describes you very well because it perfectly fits your character. you yak and yak and yak at everyone but where's the example? no, it's just illusionary.
and today, i'm resigned to knowing that i've lost to you because i no longer belong to that organisation. but one day if we were to be in the same organisation again, i'll expose you. and i'll be waiting for that day to come.
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COKE AND SF. ; Monday, June 14, 2010 01:21
i just realised my last update was 10 days ago.
once again, blazers made me feel army will be sucky because i'll be deprived of seeing everyone. just two days of filming a coca cola commercial and hanging out make me want to steal a gun and kill everybody who stops me, just to run out.
i'm even having doubts, as how will i be able to survive in another team. yes, i don't deny that other teams will have their own types of enjoyment. but the three years i spent in tp will linger in my memory throughout my 9 weeks in tekong and the remaining 1year 8months.
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effectively, i have no videos of our two days of performance. however, i do have a photo of my coca cola collection which i brought home to watch during the world cup.
i wanted to stack higher but it was on a glass table and i wouldn't want to know what would happen if the cans fell.
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it was more tiring yesterday because
1. THE SUN WAS VERY SUPER DAMN FUCKING HOT
2. they were filming and we had to do more things like stunts
today was better because there wasn't any filming and i'm not saying that we weren't serious (because we give in 200% effort all the time!), but because it felt more fun! and we were smarter to take PLAIN WATER from the registration counter and hence, we drank lesser coke.
walked over to ps with 8 cans of coke in my bag to meet gerald and melo and i saw natasha. okayy. i didn't really see her because i wasn't expecting to see anyone there.
STREETFEST.
melooooo.
ashleyy.
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legacy? ; Friday, June 04, 2010 01:53
i was talking to shaun from legacy in msn and apart from asking me to join legacy, what he told me really sent me into deep thought.
i have DO NOT HAVE A FLYER, and all i do is just gym, gym and gym. that does not technically help me to improve in cheer. in simple terms, i'll remain stagnant throughout this time.
he told me this,
"if you want to help someone to improve, you would first have to improve".
i'm gym-ing more crazily than a dragonboater, i'm consuming more protein than rice, and does it really help? NO.
which goes back to my first point of why did i initially want to join legacy. i don't make comparisons because it's a fact.
anyway, i've made my decision now. who knows what would happen in the future. in weeks or months to come, anything could happen. let's just wait and see. (:
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