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i love my lips ; Thursday, July 30, 2009 23:45
i was thinking of my post yesterday and i was like, hey, it's the first time i posted lyrics on my blogspot! i thought i only did it in myspace.
i think i've done almost every possible thing and i think i'm only surviving on my optimism. somehow, i think it'll lead me somewhere.
i officially can't eat fried food and chili. in a way, it's good for my stomach also. but then, my lips hurt that i think i'd cry if anything touches it.
tried shampoo just now. almost suffocated myself in the toilet.
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half full or half empty? ; Wednesday, July 29, 2009 22:59
i wonder how far my optimism would take me.
and i'm officially on 24/7 standby!
two more days. can't wait for the weekend to come.
having a new computer doesn't increase my likelihood of staying in the lab.
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simple plan - crazy ; 00:46
tell me what's wrong with society
when everything i look i see
young girls dying to be on tv
won't stop 'til they've reached their dreams
diet pills, surgery
photoshopped pictures in magazines
telling them how they should be
it doesn't make sense to me
is everybody going crazy?
is anybody gonna save me?
can anybody tell me what's going on?
tell me what's going on
if you open your eyes
you'll see that something is wrong
i guess things are not how they used to be
there's no more normal families
parents act like enemies
making kids feel like it's world war iii
no one cares, no one's there
i guess we're all just too damn busy
and money's our first priority
it doesn't make sense to me
is everybody going crazy?
is anybody gonna save me?
can anybody tell me what's going on?
tell me what's going on
if you open your eyes
you'll see that something is wrong
is everybody going crazy?
is everybody going crazy?
tell me what's wrong with society
when everywhere i look i see
rich guys driving big suv's
while kids are starving in the streets
no one cares
no one likes to share
i guess life's unfair
is everybody going crazy?
is anybody gonna save me?
can anybody tell me what's going on?
tell me what's going on
if you open your eyes
you'll see that something
something is wrong
is everybody going crazy?
is anybody gonna save me?
can anybody tell me what's going on?
tell me what's going on
if you open your eyes
you'll see that something is wrong
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trajectories of my thoughts: redemption
i'll seek till i get pardoned.
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my father's birthday! ; Sunday, July 26, 2009 21:56
happy birthday daddy! (:
i was so preoccupied that i thought today was some important day, and that if were to eat out, we had to make a booking because everywhere would be crowded.
i spent my weekend at home, which was rather usual. if i actually go out, it'd be unusual.
dinner was at vivo city. at garunda padang cuisine. the food was spicy. and i doubted my stomach because of the recurring feeling. but i survived.. i think.
i missed the match between liverpool and singapore! lucky i managed to catch the highlights on channel 5 news. 5-0. they scored more than the previous time, when liverpool still had michael owen and robbie fowler. and no steven gerrard this time!
start of sip tomorrow. actually, there's no difference. new pc! but who cares. it's still 9-6 for 7 more weeks.
and i shall make it a point to do it at 12mn everyday. because sending at random hours makes it look casual.
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you'll never walk alone.
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for some reason, my lungs hurt. going to see the doctor tomorrow. i wanted to wait till wednesday so i can mc from school. oh wells.
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zz ; Thursday, July 23, 2009 23:52
apparently, i still felt nauseated throughout the day. now i have a phobia of taking the bus. seriously, it took me damn long to get over with that feeling, and it just had to all come back.
went to training today despite my whatever feelings. skipped crunches and kicks. feeling a bit guilty now. and my hurkey sucks.
performers. please remember to smile more. (:
did elevator today. good job to melo and michelle for learning elevator pop! juniors, you will all progress together.
don't be a nato. don't think. if you want to do something, go for it. if you hesistate, you've lost your confidence. hence, you can forget it.
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TOTAL SOLAR ECLIPSE ; Wednesday, July 22, 2009 21:58
fuck the person who brought the fucking smelly cheesy or whatever thing up the bus because till now, i still feel like vomiting.
for the first time, i had to give up my seat on the upper deck and stand downstairs. and it didn't help that my body was aching already. i contemplated alighting at walking home because i swear i felt that i could faint anytime.
THAT'S WHY I HATE SQUEEZING ON THE BUS HOME DURING THE PEAK HOURS.
migraine now. sighh.
an apple a day keeps the doctor away. well, apparently and hopefully. (:
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eccentric ; Monday, July 20, 2009 23:50
i shall not blog about mp even if i have nothing else to blog about because seriously, it's a waste of time.
training today. three hours of slack physical training. i think i didn't use fully the time i spent at the gym. stunts tomorrow.
my legs are somehow aching. 200m of squats and launches at the end.
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another quote from zhiliang:
train your power at the gym,
train your strength while doing stunts.
i think i'm too eccentric for my own good.
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day 4 ; Sunday, July 19, 2009 13:38
i tell myself that i'm fine. i tell everyone who's concerned that i'm okayy. but in reality, i'm not.
i tell myself that i must get on a fix it, but actions speak louder than words. i finally understand the feeling of being in an awkward position.
it's a cold feeling. but i've expected it. at least, we're still talking.
i'm going to start from scratch if i have to. this is how much you mean to me.
and i seriously think i have a split personality.
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; Saturday, July 18, 2009 18:34
i'm sorry that i took you for granted.
quoted from zhiliang:
those who live for their own sake does not have much to live for
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tgif again ; 01:18
monday training. tuesday training. wednesday training. thursday late. friday.. it feels so good to reach home early. after all, i've only been sleeping 4 hours every night.
my standard for thursday's performance sucked. and i noticed that no one shouted, "go blazers".
i think i should just be oblivious to whatever has happened. after learning my lesson, it feels better that way.
watched finish k-on! today. yay! shall proceed to chobits next. anyone who has recommendations, feel free to tell me!
i remembered i had a lot to blog but apparently, i can't remember anything. maybe because my eyes are struggling to stay open. but i can only sleep in 20 minutes.
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fml ; Thursday, July 16, 2009 23:13
i just needed one chance to screw myself. and i did that today.
i don't know what the fuck a friend i am to you. in actual fact, i only bothered about myself. nato. all i did was to say this and that. my actions did otherwise.
i was too insensitive. i knew it would lead to this but i did not care about how you felt. all i thought about was myself. i was too selfish.
i do what people ask me to do. i never thought of the consequences. it's time i woke up. i'm not leading a fairytale life.
i know there are people around me who cared. yet, i made them bother about my problems because of my inability to settle them.
you're a good friend. and i don't want to lose you.
i can only sincerely apologise to you. but i know that if apologies could solve every problem, the world would be a happy place.
i'm sorry.
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; Wednesday, July 15, 2009 00:08
i don't know what is wrong with me today. i seem too vengeful. anyway, i still think it has to take a lot to get me angry.
my time in the lab really sucked. just hit my limit.
i thought things would be better when i went to training. but things didn't turn out how i wanted it.
my apologies, i shouldn't bring my emotions onto the mats. you'll know if you understand me.
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cosfest viii day 2 ; Sunday, July 12, 2009 23:03
i think i sent another +-100 messages today. but still, it's not like i care.
i missed out on the kentucky workshop this weekend. for those who went and learnt, good for you.
i waited an hour for macpherson's prawn noodles, which made me late in everything in my schedule. supposed to meet qiming but i was late, so he went back to camp before i even boarded the train at amk.
anyway, i train-ed to pasir ris again. shiyuan was there before me! one of the rare few times.
met natasha after that and we saw melo when we entered the d'marquee tent. i don't really believe that i walked around the tent for 4 hours non-stop. and the place is so huge that it's so hard to find someone.
star.-
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legacy all-stars performance. ; 00:43
went to suntec to watch and support legacy all-stars today. good job legacians! (:
met shiyuan at cityhall mrt and train-ed down to pasir ris. walked to downtown east to see the cosfest. it's a totally different feeling; working at the d'marquee and strolling around looking at people.
train-ed back to suntec after that. wanted to meet whoever was still there after watching the performance, but they left already. went to meet my parents instead. the health carnival at the exhibition showed the true side of singaporean; all queuing for free food.
going back to cosfest with shiyuan again tomorrow. we found the ideal character to cosplay together. we shall cosplay someone that no one has even done before.
presenting: BANANAS IN PYJAMAS. HAHAHA
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tgif ; Friday, July 10, 2009 22:40
i sent 90 sms-es today! not that i really care anyway though. hahaha.
terence and nicholas didn't come today. i think they planned not to go together so if desmond and i slept, we would definitely get caught.
anyway, i created another uploadimage page and still oculdn't write the data into the database. supervisor says the database is corrupted. i think i'll learn from my SENIOR and put static images.
i need to clear my five days worth of leave also.
we're going to watch legacy's performance at 1615 tomorrow. please inform us if you're coming so we know that we've to wait for you!
and i'm going to have a look at the kentucky workshop on sunday. let me know if you want to tag along! (:
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; 00:49
by right, this entry should have been posted an hour ago but i was watching channel 255's forensic heroes ii instead!
i got kicked in my head during training today and my spectacles are totally out-of-shape. need to adjust tomorrow or everything i see will look weird.
i'm doing at least 3 extensions with terence for next thursday's performance outside the library and i'm feeling rusty. sucks. need to train more!
events to watch:
legacy's performance at suntec this saturday,
kentucky cheerleading workshop this saturday and sunday from 9-6.
anyone who wants to go, drop me a text. (:
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fuck m ; Wednesday, July 08, 2009 22:13
i've been feeling disturbed the whole day. how the fuck does someone cut your bicycle lock in the wee hours of the morning without making any noise.
which, gives me another reason to be more racist. seriously, what the fuck is wrong with you people. if you let me catch you riding my bicycle around my neighbourhood, i ensure that i'll whack the daylights out of you.
anyway i screwed the disc of thle previous yebars' major project. and i can't burn the data back in. i'm so dead tomorrow.
blazers blog never fails to give me things to post. i decided not to react against it in any way. those who saw it, you're seriously thinking too much. it's all your imagination. (:
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catch up or stay behind ; Tuesday, July 07, 2009 23:24
i love cheerleading politics so much that i'll create an ONLY-BY-INVITATION-AND-MANDATORY-LOGIN blog to talk all about it! (:
lets update my injuries:
toes stepped by people who went on a rampage without even knowing, both legs and ankles aching because they never fully recovered, back still hurting from yesterday, and now my arms ache too.
i remembered some of the important things that my seniors have told me. where's your "catch up or stay behind" spirit?
many of the juniors are improving. the seniors are getting complacent. no one is irreplaceable. to start off, i wasn't even in the national team at the beginning.
another thing i want to highlight is, training starts at 6. unless you tell me everyone ends their lessons at 6 or 7, why are the mats still being pieced together at 620?
okayy, i really should go create that blog now. i don't want to ruin my blog complaining about cheerleading all the time. it really bores the readers.
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youth day ; Monday, July 06, 2009 23:33
to those in primary, secondary and jc, happy youth day!
to those in whichever university or wherever who started school today, hope you had fun.
and to those in poly, damn sad because we're not considered as youths.
anyway, i spent an hour of my time in the lab running spybot because i think i downloaded too many applications. now the computer's slow enough for you to load firefox and go to the canteen to grab a bite first. oh wells.
physical training today. yay! kelwin said we should increase the conditioning to two sets, and then three. double yay!
i injured my back while during bridge. the worse and most useless way to injure it.
216 squats in 10 minutes. 216 pushups in 10 minutes next monday? (:
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no YOUTH day holiday ; Sunday, July 05, 2009 20:51
watched episodes 09 and 10 of k-on! today. shall finish the last 3 by the next weekend!
what's the difference between my weekday and weekend when, i log on ffs and rc once i turn on my laptop. the only thing is, i'm 99% not by my laptop when it's a weekend, while i'm 99% staring at the school computer when it's a weekday.
i realised i used to be very self-centered. i read your blog and it really made sense. what we used to be individually when we were younger.
i actually like being a reserve for wcg because i don't have to go down to suntec and squeeze with hundreds of other people.
and i think if i were to drive a car, it wouldn't be for myself.
anyway, i have no idea why do we have lessons tomorrow when it's youth day. aren't tertiary students still, students?
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chomp chomp! ; 01:52
i just came back from supper with shiyuan at serangoon garden. it's been a LONG time since we night-cycled together and even LONGER time since i went to chomp chomp to eat. and we found out where the shortcut underpass to amk was. yay! (:
wanted to run 2.4km today but there was some event at yck stadium, so i went to the gym with gerald instead. l4d-ed after that. completed advanced mode in 30 minutes but i thought we could do it faster.
happened to look at the people playing dota beside me and i think they have too much money to spend because they purchase items more weird than russell! for example, drow ranger buys vanguard and axe with two vanguard can dagger right beside the enemy's tower, get stunned and die.
anyway, i went to parkway parade with my parents and sister for dinner and i realised that there's nothing to eat/ do there. oh wells.
played pool with shiyuan after supper just now. lost 3-0. missed countless free-balls. really shows what's left of my standard after not playing pool since year 1.
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training cancelled! ; Thursday, July 02, 2009 23:28
it's friday tomorrow. and i spent my past two days staring at fb's ffs. i don't know what to write in my log book.
training was cancelled today because there wasn't any vacant place to train. i'm caught in two minds.
went to tampines gym with terence after school. it wasn't as crowded as the previous time we went BUT STILL, the free weights section was filled. headed to subway for dinner after that.
i had a dilemma on which route to take home because every one seemed equally long from tampines central.
tried taking 34 to punggol interchange, nel to serangoon and took 133 home. the journey in the transport was okayy. the waiting was not. i finally knew what it meant by 8-14 minutes waiting time for 133. it means 8+14=22 minutes because i waited exactly that long. and the bus fare was quite steep because i think nel doesn't have transfer rebate.
anyway, i have no idea why i'm playing friends for sale either.
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pr1 ; Wednesday, July 01, 2009 19:06
everybody makes mistakes; that's why we put erasers on them - xwonder
what if we use a pen? you'll have to be confident that you won't make a mistake to use one. (:
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pr1 was OKAYY. printed a few papers and pasted them in the log book, checked for 10 minutes and it was over.
for the first time, i didn't open my visual studio for the WHOLE day.
and it feels good to reach home earlier.
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0 fitness level ; 00:06
i don't want to post this on the blog so if anyone reads this then, good for you.
if i teach you and you want to give me attitude, then i won't bother about you anymore, because i feel that's what you want.
i rather be fierce and let you guys hate me now, and learn the proper techniques, than regret later. one day if you're appreciative, you'll come back and tell me thanks.
anyway, yesterday's post wasn't the perfect way that i wanted to start my first post on the team blog. my apologies.
i feel pathetic because i can only visit the gym once a week!
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i feel inspired by michelle.
if you feel that i'm a bad example and don't deserve the respect, challenge me. prove it to me.
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