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peak hour bus ; Wednesday, April 29, 2009 21:03
i realised that i haven't been taking bus home during the evening peak hours for a long time.
taking 8 from school is still OKAYY because i only have to squeeze with my fellow schoolmates. changed to 76 at payar lebar because i was going to my grandmother's place. there was this two fucking people who took turns to stand so fucking close to me that i stared and gave them the wtf look until they alighted.
i went to buy a spare battery for my handphone. tried this shop with some chinese guy selling second-hand phones. he wasn't even sure with his models! lucky i asked him to open and try the battery. if i had brought it home, i'd have wasted $28 because it couldn't fit. lucky i managed to get one from another shop. my current battery dies after less than two days.
to my grandmother's house to pick things up after that. i don't understand why you intend on getting me angry. i know you're concerned. but you're trying too hard. maybe i went a little overboard. sighh.
fantasy, obsession or reality?
p.s. otl you're a genius. i admire you for your perfect literature sense. i love everything you write and i actually look forward to reading your new posts!
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WARNING: swine flu ; Tuesday, April 28, 2009 23:34
i have updated the list of my forbidden food. i will not consume anything that's spicy, no milk, coffee or tea, nothing deep fried or too oily. in other words, eating porridge is the best!
did forward and backward roll for training today. the amazing thing is i almost perfected both!
two more days of school. i am looking forward to labour day. the only public holiday for the next five months.
if a singaporean gets infected with swine flu, i'll skip school. serious. i rather go 4.1 then die early.
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juniors! ; Monday, April 27, 2009 23:20
joining cheerleading has never been a mistake. like i said today, my initial reason why i joined was to accompany terence. but look at me now. it's been almost a year and i'm still there.
it has grown into a passion and i believe there's still many things for me to accomplish.
juniors, don't be discouraged by today's training. the conditioning is tough. but if you build your physique from start, everything will be easier for you later.
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i'm surprised that time passed so quickly during fyp today. did my student log book for more than half the day.
shall do the database tomorrow and possibly the template also. hopefully time will past as fast!
i don't know where's this heading towards but i don't care.
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; Sunday, April 26, 2009 22:43
met gerald today. i think the last time i saw him was before cheerobics.
anyway, we went to the gym to run because it was raining outside. we were having our random chats and then he said he haven't been training for a long time.
i told him that i credited all my gym training to him. if he didn't influence and brought me to the gym more than a year ago, i don't think i would have lasted THAT long in cheerleading.
i don't think that i would have dedicated THAT much time to my physical fitness. i might be wasting my time at home playing computer games but i didn't. and that, i thank him.
went to raiders to play l4d after that. shiyuan had a last minute appointment so he didn't join us. i realised that when you only have 2/4 of the team that you know, you can't play harder than normal difficulty. we restarted countless times.
sorry, that i got so worked up. i shouldn't have because after all, it's only a game. my apologies.
back to imprisonment tomorrow. week two. eighteen more to go.
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recreational ; 00:23
i've decided to dedicate my weekends to recreational, family and maybe SOMETHING ELSE. realised that i've been spending too much time staring at the computer for ALL my weekdays so i should relax during my weekends.
went night cycling with shiyuan. met at dolphin. cycled to novena square via marrymount and thomson. headed back to lorong 1 toa payoh and looped to bishan before going back to ang mo kio. okayy, we took less than two hours.
the only thing that i can invent on is my bicycle. and oh, it isn't even mine to start with.
meeting gerald to run later. possibly going to the gym again.
slowly does it. (:
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tender, loving, care ; Saturday, April 25, 2009 12:45
you can't have the best of both worlds. from miley cryus' the climb, there's always gonna be another mountain.
you can't expect to have whatever your friends have. you can't expect to have something in return when you do something. if you want something, you'll have to prove yourself and earn it.
i always ask myself. do i really deserve it?
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poor ; Friday, April 24, 2009 20:45
i realised that consulting doctors for my stomach's condition isn't cheap. think i'll stop going chai chee for awhile because i really can't afford paying $75 a week, although the medicine really helps.
went to see this family physician at block 347 just now. $61 for two weeks of medication. but i seriously doubt i'll go back after that. considering that i've spent $757 in on doctors fees since february. and it doesn't help that my parents aren't paying for me.
now that i think of it, i think that i should have forgone cheerobics because i could have earned $2800 in my two months of holiday. instead, i gave up the job and landed myself in a huge debt. i sometimes wonder when can i revert to my past life.
i think it's the first time i'm feeling so happy that the weekends are here. the past five days in school has been real sucky. got scolded on two occasions that i think only rendered a warning.
hopefully the next would be better. anyone to recommend me a weekend job? i don't mind working the whole day although i know i would be damn tired.
and i still need to fit my gym schedule in. gymming once a week sucks. i think it's redundant.
gym tomorrow morning, then run with gerald on sunday. and school starts again. those people out on sip, you better enjoy your life. because nothing can be worse than engine's mp. seriously speaking, it's what i call imprisonment.
i need money to change my phone. the battery doesn't last more than two days, and shops don't carry any stock anymore.
okayy, i'm seriously pissed because i was at the clinic just now. and the receptionist gave three people, who came in later than me, their turn first. i almost wanted to walk off because i was damn hungry.
it's a good start, and that's all i want to know. (:
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one more try ; Thursday, April 23, 2009 23:38
i shall make it a point that i have to leave training by 2100 or latest, 2130.
with my current timetable, i can imagine that one day my father would personally remove me from cheerleading. i've taken the taxi home after every training this week. and even by reaching home around eleven, my father has questioned why i'm reaching home that late. i can't imagine what would happen if i take the bus instead.
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i've decided to give it a shot. no guarantees but i'll try. because i know it's hard for myself to give up like that.
and since i'm used to the feeling of being rejected, what do i have to lose?
never try, never die.
never die, never know. (:
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cca recruitment drive day 1 ; Wednesday, April 22, 2009 20:46
my whole morning has been a mess. rushed to saa and then to our cheerleading booth to get my letter of excuse to apply for loa. didn't eat during the break, hence i was very hungry before lunch.
and i finally know what i'm going to do for my mp when there's two hours left in the day. so, i've effectively wasted 3 days doing nothing.
today is the first day of the cca recruitment drive. i think i did well for our performance. haven't seen the video yet. but as terence said, the crowd was very anti-climax. we were shouting our heads off and they didn't bother to shout back. oh wells. who do you really expect to know what cheerleading is about?
on a side note, i don't care if i can't do a toss-to-hand, a proper straight toss, a standing backtuck or even a cartwheel. i don't judge people by what they can do, so i hope you won't judge me too.
it's not that i'm happy to not achieve anything in cheer. you can try comparing me but i'd advise you against it. there are, in fact, things i want to achieve before i graduate. but i need to train. and believe it or not, i'm training hard.
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first day of mp ; Monday, April 20, 2009 23:15
today was a total waste of time. rotted in school when i could be doing more productive things at home. had two briefings which i thought they were more of common sense.
the thing is, i got scolded for reading stomp in the lab. i was wtf. i'm not even playing games. i was told that i should be researching on my project when i wanted to reply that my supervisor didn't tell me what i'm doing. but i decided not to quarrel on the first day of school.
0900-1730 for the next 19 weeks. plus cheer on monday, tuesday and thursday. i'm going to be very tired. it's worse than working. i'll really use my weekends to sleep.
my back and wrist adds to my injuries; currently only my ankle still hurts. i don't know but one day i might just give up. at least i'm proud to say that i know i had always given my best for trainings.
day two tomorrow. i can get scolded at least once a day. transferring music to my phone or i'll sleep for the eight hours.
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tomorrow is the day ; Sunday, April 19, 2009 18:54
school starts TOMORROW. i can't decide if it's a good thing or not.
i know that i have procrastinated this for a long time. i will only speak pure crisp perfect english from the day 1 of school. *waves goodbye to all the singlish and dialects*
however i know, it will be hard. especially talking to the people in my class.
my today is more productive than yesterday! instead of sleeping, i watched the phantom of the opera and two episodes of heroes volume four. this means two more weeks and the show will be over!
on a random note, arsenal should get a replacement keeper for alumnia. fabianski isn't stable and experienced enough to play in major games.
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business or engine? BUSINESS! ; 00:14
helping business school orientation cheerleaders have given me the best two days i've had in poly life. my own cheerleading aside, life in engine has been a bore. what we don't have, business gives the rest.
i had second thoughts on printing my timetable because there's not much point in it.
i think i'm looking forward to school on monday because i took at least four short naps today. practically spent my day sleeping.
okayy, i'm off to watch the fa cup semi-final clash between arsenal and chelsea. then it's gym tomorrow morning. (:
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business school orientation ; Friday, April 17, 2009 20:59
i must say that i've really enjoyed myself the past two days. and the best thing was, it's not even the orientation for my own school. seriously, my school is total crappy. people don't talk, they don't get hyper-active and they don't participate. business school people are the opposite.
i don't say much. but i really enjoyed the atmosphere that i was in. thank you blazers for giving me a chance to help the business school cheerleaders!
school starts next week. after thursday and today, i guess i'm prapared already.
to justin and terence: I WANT THE SHIRT! (:
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week zero ; Wednesday, April 15, 2009 22:05
week zero business school orientation performance is tomorrow and i know i will do well. overall, i'm disappointed with my performance for the rehearsal today. missed a dance step and dropped an elevator extension.
one thing i hate about cheerleading is the thrash-out talks. it's supposed to clear up things between members. but what happens if it invites more personal attacks? and i still believe that not everyone would really speak their mind during these talks.
anyway, i ate four slices of bread and six oreo biscuits till dinner today. missed lunch totally and now my stomach is feeling sucky again. i should seriously consider disappearing for a few months to fully recover, rather than to put my health on the line for performances.
i got my major project assignment and i'll start school on monday. somehow looking forward to the imprisonment when school starts.
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marina barrage ; Sunday, April 12, 2009 19:53
to start off with, favian, for your own good, stop messaging her. get yourself a life.
i watched youtube videos and inspired myself to attempt toss to hands and backflip.
anyway, i went to the marina barrage with shiyuan today. believe it or not, i don't remember stepping into marina bay mrt station before. i suggested walking but the place seemed totally alien to me. lucky there was a shutter bus to bring us there.
surprisingly, the place was more crowded than i expected, though there isn't much difference from the way my brother described the place to me.
there were people who actually packed a picnic there. another than the construction sites around and the ships docked far away, the only thing to see is the singapore flyer. and we went there in the day so it wasn't even lighted.
anyway, i took some photos with my sucky 3 megapixel samsung phone. apparently the 3 megapixel fools only 5 year old kids. i still prefer my nokia 1 megapixel camara. (:
the marina barrage
the singapore flyer
kites
spouts of water
best friend!(:
i feel tempted to stomp this
call me ignorant, but i've never seen a for-handicap train before
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congrats!! (: ; Saturday, April 11, 2009 18:36
sorry people. it wasn't that i COULD NOT go. i DID NOT want to go because apparently everyone i called was busy. okayy, it wasn't so much of EVERYONE. it was just three people.
anyway, congratulations to the four of you for passing the audition! though i didn't go, i could imagine the jubilation that you all shared. i'm proud of all of you!
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my stomach is become worse. i feel like i'm back to square one.
the feeling of not being able to live the life i want, sucks.
i think i need to go back and get more medicine. and the debt i've been paying off is going to increase again.
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finally ; Thursday, April 09, 2009 18:35
finally back to the normal posting.
firstly, i'm so proud of myself because i did bench press 22.5kg a side. secondly, i'm now 66kg and i've never reached that weight before.
okayy, two consecutive days of gym isn't as productive as i thought. couldn't really do much today. think i won't go ahead with my gym schedule tomorrow.
it's good friday tomorrow! fortunately or unfortunately, i don't have school tomorrow because i'm still having my holidays.
i shall stop thinking of the happenings in blazers and let nature take it's course. i think i did enough self-reflection the past few days. lets get on with life!
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questions ; Wednesday, April 08, 2009 19:50
i guess my mind has been in a turmoil since yesterday. i've been asked questions i can't answer on my part in the team and giving my opinions because i know there are people who want to hear and listen to them.
for those who i've given the password or possibly hacked their way in, i'll post a series of questions that i've been asked.
1. i have left the team but i'm willing to come back to help train the juniors during my free time. am i allowed to do that?
2. i used to be in blazers but i'm not studying in tp anymore. can i come back and train together with the team?
i would leave them anonymous unless i've been given a direct answer from any of the committee members.
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what I think ; 01:11
candy and weihao has successfully graduated from tp blazers with first class honours. okayy. that increases the tally to five people now, with jasmine, simin and ken taking the first three spots.
the full post has been removed due to comments i've received.
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talk about favian ; Tuesday, April 07, 2009 12:16
favian is forever sickly. too much that if his condition gets worse, people will still regard it as being one of his normal illnesses. so favian has to push himself even more. he wants to do a handstand at drop straight with a tombstone piledriver before someone starts to believe him.
favian is also weak. after going to the gym for so long, he can't do a proper elevator, much less an extension. and he calls himself a cheerleader.
favian has long forgone the fact that minimal people in cheer has ever cared about EVERYONE's welfare. not just any specific people. so he almost quit cheer last night. but he has thought about it till this morning and he has decided to see how long he'll last.
favian has been cheering for the past se7en months throughout his sickness and vows to train till his last breath.
unless you really know him, he'll not say he's unwell or feeling pain anywhere during trainings but in fact, he really is.
however, he doesn't expect you to know that and probably doesn't want you to know either. thats when you define the meaning of the word, "friend".
cheer friend or real friend? that's for you to decide.
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justin, i'll remember what i've promised you. i will do it, but at the same time, i want to take things in my stride.
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; Sunday, April 05, 2009 21:42
i thought about it before. i don't want to involve myself in your complicated lifestyle. i seriously don't know what i'm thinking of now.
i thought i had finished watching the first season of gossip girl today. got tricked because the link for the last episode had only 21 minutes, half of the whole 40 minutes. so i'll have to watch the whole thing again.
day 3: i'm feeling better today, though the feeling's not perfect like it was 3 days ago. should i or should i not go for training tomorrow.
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; Saturday, April 04, 2009 18:55
i found out that not only girls pms. it happens to guys too.
i hate it when someone gives me the "i-happy-then-i-talk-to-you" and the "i-not-happy-so-i-don't-talk-to-you" attitude. like wtf, why should i be affected by your mood swings even if you have your personal reasons.
i so fed up till i gave up asking many people for things. i just inform them. you interested, look for me. if not, forget it.
day 2: my stomach isn't getting any better. should be that day that it all started. this sucks.
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back to square one ; Friday, April 03, 2009 21:37
i reckon i overdosed on the amount of milk, tea and curry intake yesterday. plus i overworked myself in training despite being sick.
paid the price when i had sever repercussions of that day when i vomited, fainted and landed myself in the hospital last june. slept at 5am this morning after convincing my body that i should rest. woke up this morning and everything came back, till now.
i should seriously reconsider going back to cheer or letting myself embark on a full recovery first.
terence, go listen to eminem's under the influence. it has your favourite line in the chorus!
and this is a BIG way to show your appreciation.
THANK YOU
CANDY! (:
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go fight win! ; Thursday, April 02, 2009 23:43
i think this is the first ever time that i've made three posts in the same day.
i just came back from cheer training. kelwin's new training style rocks. actually this was implemented by our seniors before already. i had to walk home with both my legs cramped but i like! (:
justin's aims for me for the next nationals are round-off-backtuck. my personal aim before i quit cheerleading is to do liberty, whether or not with blazers flyers.
thanks for the encouragements.
no matter how many times i fall, i won't give up.
i've been through so much in cheer.
and i'll fight till i'm down to my final breath.
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//i actually use my hotmail account to login to blogger. ((:
went to qiming mother's wake this morning. met shiyuan, eric, sally and rebecca and amkhub then took bus to his house. met lijan and june there. chanmeng came when we just left because he overslept.
came back to amk central and slacked to the virtualand at big mac centre. went to the cafe in the middle of amkhub for lunch. $7.30 for nasi bryani and milk tea. worse than food court price.
rebecca and sally went to vivo after that so the remaining 4 of us went play a game of l4d at raiders. advanced mode, restarted 9 times at the last mission. damn funny. we keep killing each other with friendly fire. or rather, just me.
off to training now. i'm so tired and moodless and i know i'm going to be late. wish that i could just not go.
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a place called here ; 07:42
sometimes, people can go missing right before our very eyes. sometimes, people discover you, even though they've been looking at you the entire time. sometimes, we lose sight of ourselves when we're not paying enough attention.
we all get lost once in a while, sometimes by choice, sometimes due to forces beyond our control. when we learn what it is our soul needs to learn, the path presents itself. sometimes we see the way out but wander further and deeper despite ourselves; the fear, the anger or the sadness preventing us returning. sometimes we prefer to be lost and wandering, sometimes it's easier. sometimes we find our own way out. but regardless, always, we are found.
-adapted from cecelia ahem's a place called here.
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poaching ; Wednesday, April 01, 2009 13:43
i don't know whether i want to touch on this subject. someone asked me what i thought of poaching people yesterday.
personally, without the knowledge of that person's current team, it's very unethical. in other words, it's using underhand methods to get someone.
i feel that it goes down to your loyalty. it's how much you think of your team. it's like using your team as a stepping stone to get your basics, then jump to somewhere else to upgrade your skills.
however, to each has his reasons. it's rather controversial. i don't want to go too deep.
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