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day 1 of 7 ; Monday, September 29, 2008 23:45
my parents flight was at 0810 this morning. i think they left the house six plus. gonna miss them. and it's a chance to be independent!
reached doctor chua's clinic at 0840 today. number 10. by the time i consulted him, it was already 11.
i told him that i couldn't sleep at night, finished his 10 days of medication and symptoms still persisted.
he suggested i go for scope, but i decided to try the medicine one more time. he also said could be due to stress. and now i think i might know what he meant.
all this while, i was telling myself that i'm feeling perfectly fine whenever i feel nausea. i think i'm telling my mind too many things. it's like letting it control me, which makes me really scared.
I MUST BE OPTIMISTIC! don't think of the worst, but the best to come. (:
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singaporean grand prix 2008 ; Sunday, September 28, 2008 22:14
fernando alonso is the winner of the first ever singaporean grand prix. congratulations!
sixty-one rounds is really rad. even for the viewers like me, it can be quite tiring to just sit there and watch.
anyway, my parents are flying off tomorrow. going to taiwan for 7 days. back next sunday. it's going to be long, but hopefully time passes fast in singapore.
going to consult the doctor for my gastric for the 4th time tomorrow. it's been real difficult to sleep for the past 2 days. and i don't think tonight's gonna be any better. can feel my that my stomach's weird now.
arsenal lost to hull at the emirates. 1-2. *speechless*
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; Friday, September 26, 2008 14:10
i should say this week went quite well. going out really makes time past faster.
monday. work 9-1, badminton 2-4 and cheer training 6-9. out the whole day doing something meaningful.
tuesday. supposed to work 9-1 but my gastric acted up again. took the train to dhoby ghaut, before going down to serangoon to meet weiliang for breakfast. slacked at home till evening, before accompanying terence for cheer training. couldn't train as i wasn't feeling well.
wednesday. something happened at sentosa. for the whole day. dinner at my grandmother house was bad. because i ate carl's jr before going there. and they cooked too much. i think a lot of food went to waste.
thursday. my stomach wasn't feeling any better. anyway, met qiming, terence, weiliang and xianlong for gym at yck. had pepper lunch after that. went back to amkss with qiming and realised that mrtanwk wasn't there anymore. talked to some teachers, before meeting shiyuan for light soccer at dolphin. i think the last time i played was more than 3 months ago.
friday. the only day of the week that i've no plans for. still deciding whether to meet qiming for youth service at jurong west tonight.
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something random. for those who know me inside out, i'm not the type of person who likes to bother or interfere with other people's life. if you wanna tell me something, i'll listen. otherwise, i wouldn't even bother asking.
i was blog hopping and came across this blog, who's owner somehow or other related to me.
i just want to say that, your life can't have just one group of friends. you've got to learn to cheerish those "other people" who've been in your life. otherwise, you'll always carry this emptyness feeling.
that's all. you know if i'm referring to you. (:
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2nd day at blue ; Friday, September 19, 2008 23:54
missed training yesterday. reason being my body was still aching and i think i'll be more of a stone and get scoldings raining down on me so i decided to rest at home.
worked again today. second day at blue. one whole day by myself in the conference room. i finally understood how shiyuan felt when he worked with me last time. i was doing his exact job.
collect papers from the printer every 15 mins, count and sort them into stacks of 23. bind some and as usual, i binded some the wrong side. lucky i know how to use the photocopy machine!
left at 1830. saw my brother! anyway, i couldn't finish my work. imagine me handling paper for 8.5 hours and i cannot complete it. they asked me to go back on monday. messaged xianlong immediately to change badminton time to 2-4pm.
this is my monday's schedule. 9-1 work, 2-4 badminton and 6-9 cheer training. i know i'll be damn tired, so i better not work on tuesday.
still contemplating whether i should go training tomorrow. thought of going to learn tumblings. but if everyone else is going stunting, i rather gym. and if you ask me to go tp at 9am to gym, i rather go yck at my own time. (:
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back to training and blue ; Wednesday, September 17, 2008 20:22
i'm officially back to cheer training!, which started on monday. and of course, i wouldn't neglect my health for it. but i'll ensure i put in more hard work at the end of the day!
monday was stunts conditioning. and as the backspot for elevator and elevator pop, you don't really feel as tired as the bases. still, it was quite bad for me, considering my level of fitness.
we went to the gym as a team on tuesday. trained leg muscles at first, and did some bench press. i did shoulder stand for the first time!, with charyl. okayy, i know my shoulders aren't big enough. no place to step. got to train harder. learnt how to pitch, which added to my tiredness and showed how weak i was. so that's even more encouragement to visit the gym more often!
first day of work today at blue. shiyuan couldn't make it because he wanted to jam the whole holidays, so i got liangsheng to accompany me. supposed to be 9-1, but extended to 3. waited 40 mins at uob bank for him, before taking nel to serangoon interchange.
i had to act smart and come out from another exit. ended up taking 133 towards the wrong direction. alighted at potong pasir mrt and took 13 back. reached home 1745.
my body is still aching from tuesday's training. hopefully i can recover by tonight. or i'll miss tomorrow's training. and i'll probably makeup by going on saturday! (:
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wall-e ; Friday, September 12, 2008 22:30
met qiming and shiyuan and junction 8 today. watched wall-e. and despite what everyone has been telling me, i don't find it a very fantastic show. maybe 3.5/5 stars? though i liked the magic show before it! (:
shiyuan went taka after that to find his "god of millenium" book. went with qiming to yck stadium. weiliang met us there.
my fitness level really sucked. supposed to train 2.4km. ended up running 3 rounds and walking the 4th. ran out of energy after that. gym was poor also. didn't manage to finish my normal rounds.
the past 3 weeks really cost me my fitness. loss 2kg and much motivation. and when i go back to cheer training on monday, i know i'm going to lag very far behind. and my fitness level isn't helping me. :(
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money no enough 2 ; Thursday, September 11, 2008 20:10
met weiliang, xianlong and khairul at amk central market for lunch. watched money no enough 2 at amkhub cathay after that. first time i've watched a movie there, and with my poly class.
i would classify the movie as a touching comedy. the way they poke at singapore. erp stands for every road pay. but the show was mostly spoken in hokkien, so it'll be a waste if you don't understand that dialect.
i know i might be over suspicious. but i sense a cloud of betrayal looming over me, which really gets me thinking who my real friends really are. and suddenly, i feel i can no longer trust you by your actions.
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spoof-ed ; 12:31
i was talking to shiyuan last night and we generated the following conversation.
favian; always with me [somniphobia] s.h.i.y.u.a.n tmr follow me go see doctor again
favian; always with me [somniphobia] s.h.i.y.u.a.n haha
s.h.i.y.u.a.n favian; always with me [somniphobia] ...
s.h.i.y.u.a.n favian; always with me [somniphobia] for?
favian; always with me [somniphobia] s.h.i.y.u.a.n same thing
favian; always with me [somniphobia] s.h.i.y.u.a.n nausea
favian; always with me [somniphobia] s.h.i.y.u.a.n lol
favian; always with me [somniphobia] s.h.i.y.u.a.n last doctor alr
favian; always with me [somniphobia] s.h.i.y.u.a.n if still no difference then i give up alr
s.h.i.y.u.a.n favian; always with me [somniphobia] i think u got a serious case of throat cancer
s.h.i.y.u.a.n favian; always with me [somniphobia] lol
favian; always with me [somniphobia] s.h.i.y.u.a.n .......
s.h.i.y.u.a.n favian; always with me [somniphobia] batman
LOL. the conversation followed, "enunciate, do you know what that means?, it has nothing to do with physical contact".
i went for my ultrascan today. just kidding. anyway, i consulted the third doctor for my stomach this morning. currently on 10 day medicated leave. but i know YOU won't believe. and i gave up proving a point to you also.
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f704 class chalet ; Wednesday, September 10, 2008 14:31
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day1, monday
went for my cvm appointment at ttsh in the afternoon. everything was quite fast, so the process took less than an hour. however, i spent 40mins waiting for payment. hence, weiliang waited for 30mins for me at raffles place mrt.
we went together, and met jarred at pasar ris mrt. angela, celeste, davin, khairul and xianlong were already there when we reached. the bike rental was dumb. it was 1753 but the owner said it was six and closed.
took 3 to loyang point for dinner and got the remaining food stuffs we needed for the bbq. took prawns from shaowei after that.
and when we wanted to go e!hub in the night, it rained. sums up the first day.
day2, tuesday
celeste went to work, girls went to school, guys went pool, superdog and bowling. went back to the chalet to sleep after that. i don't really expect myself to sleep at 1pm even though i only had 2 hours of sleep the night before.
i was thinking about the bbq pits, and the chicken suddenly came to my head! haven't marinate. lucky weiliang and khairul woke up, so i enlisted their help.
richardseow came when we were downstairs. he told us that prelim results showed our class had passed everything. supervised the whole process and left after that.
honestly speaking, i was disappointed with the people who told me they're coming and mia themselves without telling me. seriously, you don't even have respect for me as your classmate or friend?
anyway, i almost bbq-ed my hp. and i swear that if i organise another chalet, i'll get LESSER food.
decided to cook ALL the chicken wings. finished around 10, which is early.
angela and weiling left before 11. celeste came back after that and left almost immediately. weiliang was like, wtf.
jarred, alan and russell left after that for a grand finale. for the first time in my chalet history, I DON'T HAVE TO SNATCH FOR A BED TO SLEEP. 4 people left, 4 beds. khairul, xianlong, weiliang and i have been declared last men standing.
had a heart-to-heart talk. don't see this often in guys. we were talking about the chalet and every individual including ourselves. weiliang told me that even though the chalet sucks, the last night was the best.
day3, wednesday
i usually get awaken by the phone ringing in the morning, but i didn't expect that it'll happen in the chalet also. 9am wake up call to remind you to checkout before 1030.
khairul went home after that. xianlong, weiliang and i took 89 to hougang central. went plaza to eat, and upstairs to pool after that.
cost
this section is for the curious people like weiliang who've been pestering me the whole time. to me, the money is not that important. but rather, the respect, commitment and integrity that you have.
income: $205
expenditure: $314.95
net loss: $109.95
this doesn't include the cab fare for the people who put in extra effort in helping out.
in conclusion,
the chalet was a failure. this i agree. there is a distinct gap between the guys and the girls, something that we discussed last night and i think it's confidential so it'll no be posted.
communication breakdown. the yuyi incident was an accident. other than that, there were barriers. same as discussed in the above point. guys too, we too formed our own groups. everyone had their corner in the chalet. what's the point?
giving some credit to xianlong and more to weiliang. they still came even though their sick. they had a choice, unlike me. whatever weiliang say you may think don't make sense, but he's really tried to get conversations going. still, it takes 2 hands to clap.
anyway, special thanks to weiling for i don't know what also. and the rest of the people who came. even if it's a day or just awhile, it's much appreciated.
these are the people who have my utmost respect. that's all i have to say.
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mentally unwell ; Sunday, September 07, 2008 21:32
i think my mind's going crazy. i'm psychologically making myself feel horrible internally.
favian, you're fine.
favian, you're fine.
favian, you're fine.
favian, you're fine.
seriously, i'm fine. why worry so much. like my father said, don't be so bothered by the food restriction. at most just throw out. and i'll feel better.
all this time, i just feel like vomitting. it's just the feeling. nothing really came out. so i might be imagining things from the start.
hopefully, i'll be fine when i wake up tomorrow!
i really think this chalet came at the wrong time. and cheerleading, i rather prioritise my health first, then try to attain the 85% attendance. really.
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still SICK ; Friday, September 05, 2008 17:42
i'm waiting for the day that i can wake up in the morning and say, "hey! i'm feeling totally fine!". seriously, that day has to come.
watched jackie chan's new police story yesterday and will smith's i, robot today. lucky the weekend's here. could say i've totally bored myself out the past week.
cooping myself up at home doesn't make me feel any better. then again, i don't know what i can do with my present self.
chalet's on monday. whether i'm going remains a doubt. and i need to buy food with liangsheng and my class on sunday. hopefully, i'll recover by then. (L
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why am i always sick? ; Wednesday, September 03, 2008 10:30
i missed my first ever cheer camp! sighh.
who would ever believe i fell sick on sunday night. just after i managed to convince myself to let myself go.
and now i hate it when the sun sets. because my body believes that's the better time for me to feel bad. really, i'm fine during to day. and now. so hopefully, i'll be fine at night. and forever. (:
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