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; Sunday, September 30, 2007 21:16
my sunday didn't start the way i wanted it. my anger management campaign is one hard thing to keep up with.
to start, i was supposed to meet vic to pass him the dataentry forms at 10 at woodlands mrt taxi stand. though i was late and reached at 1025, he was later and came close to 11.
then it was brunch. i think i'm having communication breakdowns. can't seem to talk to people. sighh. i've always wondered what it means to be punctual when there's people who are always late? it's like, they don't even tell you anything and just keep you waiting.
amksec's fyes start tomorrow? good luck to everyone taking it. (:
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dataentry KILLS ; Thursday, September 27, 2007 22:09
i've freed myself from the jobs i got. my first attempt at dataentry turned out to be a disaster. doing 600 forms in two nights ain't an easy task.
so far, i've flyer-ed myself on mon and tues, and data-ing till two hours ago. earning some 150 odd dollars. money sure doesn't come easy.
soccer yesterday was great. saw my form coming back since injuring myself weeks ago. qiming came straight from school. school? i'm still having holidays! (:
reckon that when my second semester starts, exams should have ended for government schools and they'll probably be preparing for their holidays. which sucks.
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disappointment ; Tuesday, September 25, 2007 23:56
today, IS supposed to be the mooncake festival according to the chinese calendar. sad to say, my family seems all dead for this. it's like extinction.
and i'm not much better. i spent my valentine's day last year watching couples while working at htoe. now, it was flyer distribution in the day and data entry in the night. was cycling back from j8 with 7kg load of 600 forms when i decided to bring myself through bishan park.
to watch family gatherings. reminising the past when i used to do that many years ago. and then i saw my mother and sister. secondary school gives you the best times of your life. now my sister is in nygh, i'm in tp and my brother, nus. with different holidays altogether, it's a wish to see another family outing TOGETHER. :(
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anger management ; Sunday, September 23, 2007 21:33
i've got to learn to control my anger. realised that i may have hurt many people around me unknowningly, even my closest friends. after all, being happy is good isn't it?
went to ikea with my parents and sister to shop for lamps and chairs. only possible reason i know why i did that was because i was bored at home. the past three weeks of holidays haven't been very productive for me.
dinner was at crystal jade at toa payoh central. twice out of three times, my mother wasn't satisfied with the service. for today, my father's dinner just didn't come. probably lost its way in the kitchen for half an hour. my father decided to do without it after that.
going gym with gerald and qiming tomorrow. it always rains on sunday mornings, which made me miss two gym mornings already. :(
oh. and i'm super poor. left with a total of $10 cash in hand and back. lol.
i guess..
we're better off friends?
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; Friday, September 21, 2007 23:57
things aren't looking up for me.
i lost my 3yearold n6670 on wednesday and left my wallet with $375 in it at the 24hour coffeeshop while out for supper with shiyuan exactly a day ago, same time. lucky for me, a nice patron kept it for me. unlucky for me, i misplaced my bicycle lock key, which means i'll have to hack and break the lock, and purchase another one. :(
replaced my phone this afternoon. bought a sgh-d900 for $440? omg. it was $350 yesterday and $380 today, exclusive of gst. talk about inflation. to tell the truth, i know nuts about samsung phones, 'cause i've this obsession with nokia phones since young. okayy we know that's not true, but i've never used a phone of another brand till few hours ago.
is there children's day celebration in amkss? i miss my secondary school!
and i'm pleased to announce i've got 4 more weeks of holiday left. my mother is getting annoyed of my refusal to get a job. truthfully, i really want to find one. only that, i've got a month left. and it's not as easy as you think.
oh. i injured myself again. still wondering when can i play soccer 100% fit..
wanna watch david copperfield? i won't mind paying, if you wanna come along. (:
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i lost my phone :( ; Thursday, September 20, 2007 00:25
this is not for the faint hearted. if so, quit reading this post.
i've declared myself to be fucking racist. and i mean it. past experiences left me hanging on the fence. no more after today. especially those who spend their entire life at the street soccer courts 'cause there's no where else they can command that sort of shit respect.
20 minutes. it only took that long. 1955-2015. in the blink of an eye. i've got two prime suspects. but that wouldn't matter. people of the past think they run faster than trains. people of the present think their actions are faster than monkeys.
whoever it is, you don't intimidate me. instead, you fill my mind with hatred and rage. the gap between us has widened, to the extend it can never come back. if i find out who it is, i'll whack the daylights out of him.
hopefully with my trust, it's not an inside job. i didn't plan to say this, but it rakes the highest possibility here. call me inmature. i apologise if i got the wrong person.
you mould me into what i am. you must be pleased. you sculptured me into a rancorous beast. you ripped the flesh out of my joints.
seriously speaking if you had answered my call, i'll have gave you $200 if you returned my phone and i'd pretend nothing has happened. so you didn't.
my message to whoever it is - i mean business. you want me, come and get it.
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wasted- 20 days and counting ; Wednesday, September 19, 2007 12:44
i've effectively wasted the first 20 days of my 7-week holiday doing practically nothing. my search for a job has been fruitless, and my injuries never seem to be recovering.
in all, we've only went for a single interview at far east plaza, and i was contemplating working at ph-j8. only to a last minute backout cause shiyuan didn't want to. and so, we're continuing. i've already soccer-ed and pool-ed myself crazy. ironically, money seems to be going out instead of coming in.
even then, thoughts of a relationship 19 months ago still rings freshly in my head. maybe clues telling me i'm just not ready for another one. but, looking at how you can clear your mind just so quickly tells me that i don't mean a thing to you anymore. sighh. one word, impulsive.
i guess it's about time i bring myself back to the schooling committee. i've got to attain a minimum gpa of 3.2 for my next semester to have a nice overall year one grade. and then, it's at least another one week before i fully recover! and i'll be back for soccer. (:
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the boredom disease ; Sunday, September 16, 2007 17:23
i'm certain. it has hit me. and i mean it. i'm down with the boredom disease. definately not the way to spend the holidays, but somehow i can't get myself down with things. spent the last three weeks reading, and i've still got five more. school's a better option?
this' what i got. (:
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the evening sky from my bedroom window yesterday
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those came from psa in tanjong pagar. went with my family to tanjong pagar complex for lunch today. had bakutea. and that probably cured me for two hours. and i'm back home, staring at the com.
contemplate, and i'll really lose you?
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; Saturday, September 15, 2007 00:29
i finally won 8-feet/ball pool with a resounding victory. but though a 7-2 score, i wouldn't be pleased with that. my first victim happens to be qiming. i'm not en route-ing to perfect pool. i just want to play well.
anyway, i'll use that as a boost to whoever my next oponent would be. considering he didn't touch pool for a long time, competition would definately be tigher.
soccer after that. met wesley and we walked to the court. the problem, no ball. waited till 2030 for someone to come with one. AND I PLAYED 2 GAMES. despite all that injury. let in soft goals. well, i didn't think i was fit to play. just didn't have the momentum.
time.
to recover.
to take action.
to capitalise.
is three months enough?
is it really now or never?
or maybe, it's just another wicked dream.
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semester 1 results ; Wednesday, September 12, 2007 20:45
watch ratatouille with qiming at jubilee! $5 only. good offer. oh ya. the show is rather cute. thats all. (:
i played soccer today. my mother said i was crazy. i think so too. i think my diving hurt my waist again. it was on the road to recovery and now, it can't touch water again. sighh.
say no to soccer? never. (:
for a moment, i thought i was dreaming when shiyuan told me they were playing at dolphin. the place which has been my soccer homeground since sec2. im not critising, but today's batch of amksec students are not the same as what we had. they are very much rougher. could tell. talked to mrtanwahkiat during chinese new year celebrations and he confirmed my thoughts.
but anyway, we quickly reverted back to their (sec3s) usual place along amkstreet31 after playing one game. the only difference was this time, we had ruishan and carin in our teams. no comments on that.
during which the process, sy read my phone and received my exam results.
here goes:
1. webapp1 - b+
2. wrtoral - c+
3. effcom - d+
4. engfund - c+
5. engmath1 - d+
6. comprog - c+
7. apel1 - pass
overall gpa: 2.36
a mere consolation is, im permitted to proceed to the next semester of study. yay!
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school (not me) starts tmr! ; Sunday, September 09, 2007 22:46
having almost spent my whole life living in angmokio, i never once felt that it lacked the necessities for everyday life. unfortunately, there was a need today.
ok this wasn't meant to be. i went with shiyuan to orchard for ice cream and to buy a pen. in actual fact, we were there to watch a performance. to show a form of support.
lets see. it was to start at 1730. i slept and woke up at five. texted him and we decided to go. we did try to rush. and it was 1805 when we reached. qiming told me, "usually for big-name performances, artistes wouldn't be that punctual". so i actually thought we would get to see something. alas, we strolled into the heeren, saw people leaving, and came out the entrance. grabbed an ice cream outside paragon and got two pens from popular@orchard mrt.
took a train back to amk. we wanted to go kfc to find liangsheng but didnt know if he was still there. headed home for dinner.
ite exams start tomorrow. good luck everyone! (:
oh ya. i was reminded that secondary schools start tomorrow too. they only had a week. i was too deep into my holidays already. no insult. im too nice. come to think of it, you'll have the whole of november and december for holidays while i'll be slugging away in semester2. so, it's about the same right? (:
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the pictures! from beijing ; 14:28
esplanade?(:
stone figures
the great wall
castle?
maozedong!
familar corridor?
the emperor's bed
court session
throne!
the city
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; Saturday, September 08, 2007 20:59
you see, i've learnt that it's hard to become friends again once you've sworn someone off as your enemy. not even time can put the past behind. people say words are stagnant, but it appears here that so are our minds. persistant? think again.
i finally won shiyuan pool! 3-2. but i think he let me win. coz my waist was injured and i couldn't bend properly to aim the cue. went down to heeren after that to support ruishan and carin, though someone insisted that i only supported one person. adding also that i called him to enquire on album sales. though i wouldn't distort whichever was right, all the missles just came at me, unprepared.
sy chose to leave at the best time - when they were singing three new songs. he had family dinner at expo. so we left after they sang two, walked to somerset mrt and ended up walking back to heeren coz qiming came to look for me. by then, the programme for that slot had ended. think the next one starts at seven but we left for dunner.
maybe i only heard them once, but i think you sing better chinese songs. oh, you're not a chinese person. just say.. weird?
i'll be back tomorrow! provided sy can make it. coz his exams start on monday while it'll mark my second week of holidays. so fast. :(
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; Friday, September 07, 2007 23:34
it's storytelling time for my mother. she always has them. now, it's their experiences in beijing, china for the past 5 days.
for a start, their food servings are around american-size portions. they serve soups in metal basins and the drinks you order come in 1.5 litre bottles. was scanning through their photos the night before and saw the pictures of maozedong, and pictures of the forbidden city. you know, during those dramas with the castle backdrop and emperor's throne? i'll upload them asap.
played soccer for the first time in the week. i was dying for it, though it didnt last long. wesley came along, coz he was suffering from home-sickness. surprised that irwin knew him, coz wes was the respect vice house-captain in 2005.
my very first dive not even to save a ball gave me a 4cm abrasion on my waist. could say it took me out till the last. then a block from some mad elephant ramping somehow dislocated my last toe on my right foot. so i was like, limping all the way.
played through the afternoon till eight plus and they had to leave coz i think.. underage? just joking. there was this guy, who once had the girls obsessed with his card magic that was nowhere near bingsoon's, had another thought.
the art of leviatation? i wouldn't consider it satanic, but i rather not involve myself in something like that. i wont be a spoiler. but rather, just a spectator. after all, most are just illusions. it depends on how different people have their views on it.
chanmeng called me at 1852 to say they were playing soccer at dolphin. he told me three hours earlier they weren't. i went to sightsee. was too tired and injured to start another match. let's just call it a day.
i don't believe in leaving things to fate..
neither do i want to take things into my own hands..
i saw what i could do on impulse..
the many times i've failed..
i'll do things the slow way..
and if she goes for someone else..
it's not fate, but guess it can only be me..
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the last day ; Thursday, September 06, 2007 22:01
my parents are coming back laters! somehow, i dont feel as excited as they left. all i can say is, the past five days really taught us a lot. personal survival at home means you've to do all the household chores yourself, prepare your own meals and take extra care of yourself.
in a maximum of two hours, everything would be back to normal. on the pesimistic side, we'll all lose our freedom. being able to do many things that would be brought under control if our parents were around. then again, it's back to discipline.
lunch was at the market beside amksec. let my sister have a feel of the bike by cycling to and fro. kinda surprised that the dessert stall owners there still recognise me! (:
went cycling with shiyuan again. our original route was to go to sengkang, but i suggested checking out singapore's last kampong off buangkok green. i somehow thought we were misleeded. some kind soul brought us to one, though it didnt look like the one neil humphreys described in his book. anyway, it's down to lack of research.
a loop down the road took us back to yiochukang road. cycled in the direction of woodlands, under the yck-cte flyover, past the industrial parks and found ourselves at the back of nanyang poly, beside yck mrt. stopped by at amkhub for a drink, as well to cool ourselves down. headed home after that.
dinner was later today. we all weren't hungry. we down to eat near the swimming pool past nine. ironically, the three of us ordered four dishes. when with our family of five, we too ordered four dishes. 26.50$. reasonable.
im relishing the thought of playing soccer tomorrow. then, irwin told sy they were also playing tmr. it's going to be a continueous marathon for me. and i'll probably be too tired to go out the next day. coincidentally, sy has family dinner on saturday. which means i'll be alone. trying to get wes. otherwise, i dont think i'll go down, although i want so much. dont ask why. (:
i just got the feeling of seeing you when i passed your house..
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the forth day ; Wednesday, September 05, 2007 21:53
my mother's calls every night seem to tell me the same thing. go and find a job instead of slacking the whole holiday and why do you go out everyday? dont your friends have to work? i think, it's going to be the same when she comes back.
i got the bicycle! after waiting 50mins outside chanmeng's house and finally waking him up, only to realise he slept at 6am in the morning. it came without air, and two bicycle shops told me they dont own a pump. wtf. so i went to this tyre shop near my grandmother's house. he told me they had a pump and it was behind the stall. after trying in vain to pump for 10mins, he told me the pump was meant for car tyres. then why the hell tell me i could pump my bike? lucky i had a higher tolerance level, or i might have sent the daylights out of him.
went with my grandmother and aunt to bugis. took a cab there. rich people. not me. went to the temple to pray, and to the nearby coffeeshop to eat vegetarian kuay chap. as usual, they forced all the food down me and left me full throughout the journey home. finally pumped the bike at a newly-opened store near ave3 and cycled home. learnt that shop owners dont help you to pump your bike coz they want you to learn somehow.
shiyuan came over close to five thirty. our cycling destination was upper pierce reservoir. we made it past lower pierce. my determination led us to the road of upper pierce. unfortunately, we were stopped by four monkeys on the road. we decided that it was the end of the journey. didnt want to race past them in case they thought we were playing with them and come after us. anyway, the slopes uphill aren't pleasant. at a point i really wanted to get off my bike and push it up.
turned around and came back to amk central. stopped for bubble tea, went around the old interchange and to the library, before stopping at his house and going back home. it's more tiring than playing soccer.
oh. the three of us fixed dinner for ourselves! i wanted to fry rice, then my sister joined in. my brother came and cut the luncheon meat and suddenly, we were all at it together! for a first attempt, i thought it was rather well done. (:
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the third day ; Tuesday, September 04, 2007 20:50
things are getting better, i suppose. was supposed to go cm's house to borrow his bicycle but he went out to celebrate wc's birthday. gym-ed with qm at yck, kianyong came half an hour later. i think today was the longest. i spent 90mins at the gym. and i thought people were playing truant until i was told it's a school holiday today.
we wanted to eat subway after that, coz there's a free promotion ending today. unfortunately amkhub's subway didnt offer much space. settled for s11. sy came and join us from school and went home after lunch. the three of us then went to raiders. an amazing four hour plus ended $9.20. looks a nice clan training, only for our obsession with knives. i think we'll do better without them.
rushed back home for dinner. went with my sister and brother to eat. we look harmonious. with my parents away, we still can have dinner together. (:
the weather was nicer today, which i nicely spent it at raiders. hope to take the bike from cm tomorrow. going with my grandmother and aunt to the temple in bugis. look forward to either soccer or cycling in the evening. otherwise, it'll be another boring day.
and i haven't done my housework yet. just sent the clothes to the washing machine!
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the second day ; Monday, September 03, 2007 22:15
one word - chaotic.
my grandmother decided to add spice into my life. her first step was to get me out of bed at 0930 in the morning, to which i tried in vain to get back to sleep. guess my nightmares just started.
she wanted me and my sis to go to her house to sit. obviously thinking that we probably wouldn't be able to take care of ourselves. i politely declined, only for her to call back a few seconds later saying she wanted to visit us. so they came, in the rain. i was SUPPOSED to bring an umbrella to ferry her and my aunt to my house, when they both ALREADY had an umbrella.
uninvited would be a very mean word. but seriously, i did feel that way. i wouldnt blame my grandmother, coz im too nice to. but my aunt, i fucking hate her. and hopefully she knows that to. that to stab someone in his back when he's down is a no-no. something that i wouldnt swallow even though she's my relative.
they finally left. the weather was crap. it ruined my soccer afternoon. went to shiyuan's house to borrow bike and we cycled to thompson and back. i was amazed that i still remembered how to cycle since the last time i did was back in sec2.
rushed home and we had pizza for dinner! my brother ordered canadianpizza. singapura special and hawallian. (:
gonna borrow chanmeng's bike tmr. a little change of the tires and some polishing would help me curb the boring holidays. probably due that i dont think i'd be able to play soccer this week. the sun hasn't been out for days. :(
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arc- juncti8n ; Sunday, September 02, 2007 23:05
today marks the first day since my parents left for china. it looks like a tale of three independent kids left at home, somehow.
started with pool with sy, which i comfortably lost 5-2. went to junction 8 after that to support his cousin. qiming was supposed to come with me but he decided to go home for dinner. the event was to start at six, though it went on to six forty-five. the nus people were making full use of it and we having a charity drive too.
ruishan and carin. the two representatives from amkss. with lots of supporters whom i never knew. think they were all sec3s. very young juniors of our time. unless through cca, i doubt we'll know them. they were second to sing on that night with their song, "yi ge ren". i admit, i suck at chinese.
anyway, they were surprisingly dismissed after that. so they left with their supporters. we were left ourselves, which i would say as usual. took a train back to amk at headed for kpool again. i played better! was race to three which i lost 3-1 then we changed to five and i won 5-4. (:
going popular to check tmr if the album's on sale there. i didnt get it. lets just say, it's support.
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and they're gone :( ; 00:45
my parents left. at exactly 2256. couldnt send them to the airport as it isn't exactly convenient for us to come back. they'll be back on thursday night. for the next five days i guess, it'll be lonely ones. :(
we had our last dinner together at avenue10. steamboat! the soup was nice. and that was all. my brother brought his friends home to watch liverpool steamroll derby county with six goals. aos? good try.
handed with the tasks of keeping the ball rolling in the house. maintanence and all. only my brother would be studying. im having my semestral holidays and my sis is having her school hols, which means we have the privilege of not needing to set an alarm clock.
my list of chores go on like.. watering the plants, washing the clothes, house cleaniness and safety. my brother took care of the financial plans and my sister somehow enjoys.
anyway, i'll make fully utilise the time these few days. hopefully to find a job or feel the fullness of boredom. it's almost two months.
juncti8n tmr! (:
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