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; Tuesday, October 26, 2010 23:47
terence is going for his urban ops tomorrow. YOU'RE GONNA SPAM YOUR BLANKS UNTIL YOU FEEL DAMN GOOD. unless you think of the hard times of cleaning your rifle after that.
thrash-out session today was....okayy? though i still think that it shouldn't be held during normal training hours. then again, i'm not in any position to make decisions anymore. i can say a lot of things but i chose not to because i belong to the alumni, and i shouldn't step in unless i really need to.
i think i'm heavily diverting from my goal. two more trainings to the end of the month and what have i achieved. isn't it all nato? everything's going back to square one. i don't have the discipline.
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going back to arc tomorrow to clean up the place after the contractors have shifted everything to kranji. yeah. that's army. whatever shit there is, you've to do it. gonna leave my house at 0615 tomorrow. i hope i won't be late. seriously.
and i thought that tomorrow is a really good time to rso, since there are no lessons to rt and since i'm not really recovering.
oh wells.
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cheer = my life. ; Sunday, October 24, 2010 14:42
THE MAIN REASON WHY I DON'T WANT TO STAY IN IS BECAUSE OF CHEER.
seriously,
i don't know why am i still so committed to go back to every training, even when i was having a fever and i felt like fainting, i felt that i needed to go for the training.
seriously,
even when the whole place's a mess now, and i don't want to interfere with anything because i know that almost no one would listen to me, but i'm still going back.
seriously,
i love every single one of you in blazers. (as in, not ck's version of love. you get me.)
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comparing the pros and cons of staying-in or staying-out of camp, staying-in definitely grabs a major advantage of saving costs and time.
and then, it all goes back to cheer.
that's how much you all mean to me.
..if anyone ever reads this.
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miscomm? ; Saturday, October 23, 2010 16:16
i finally understood how everyone felt when the same thing happened to me today. i guess i've to put myself in their shoes first, before using my own opinions to make decisions in the future.
i didn't go training today and i've been feeling restless and spent half the day sleeping already. oh wells. miscommunication?
i still can't believe that they recommend us to co for everyone to stay-in next month. wtf. i hope it doesn't go through or i won't be able to attend weekday training. :(
gerald and terence only booked out today, which makes my weekend not-fun.
for some reason, the monsters workshop tonight has been cancelled.
for another reason, it's the kpop night concert at the singapore expo later!
and for the last reason, i hate the haze.
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; Sunday, October 17, 2010 12:00
so it seemed that the my recent illness and over-reliance on people made me miss the run today.
when i knew very well that i couldn've gone myself, and i knew very well that i had initially registered to go for the run myself, and i still didn't go even though i woke up at 0355 this morning.
because gerald was supposed to go with me. and he had to book in at 0820 this morning. i asked terence but he couldn't make it. and i thought, oh wells, i'll just call them and ask if i can get the goodie bag or something now that i didn't go.
FAVIAN, WHEN WILL YOU STOP GIVING EXCUSES. sucks to be me.
in the end, i woke up at 0430 to talk to gf. because apparently, he called to wake me up but i was already awake. thanks anyway. and hope you're feeling better now. (:
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; Saturday, October 16, 2010 01:15
why is it that year after year, whenever something goes wrong with the team, the captain always blame himself.
it's just a status. isn't the captain a person? shouldn't everyone be shouldering some blame instead of just one person?
and what's with the quitting part. everyone once ran away from their problems before. i ran away from mine once, but here i am, back in the team.
5ive more months to nationals. how much more do you want to selfdestruct?
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juniors first performance! ; Tuesday, October 12, 2010 23:32
blazers, i watched your first juniors performance today. if you think that you guys did well, you have to set your aims higher. if you think that you didn't do your best today, you still have friday for redemption. show me the effort on thursday.
personally, i think i would rather comment during thursday's training.
anyway, i actually sat in a NEIGHBOURHOOD STADIUM IN SINGAPORE AND WATCHED AN S-LEAGUE MATCH FOR THE FIRST TIME TODAY! though it wasn't really the best of matches to watch, it was still an experience.
3 more days to the weekends. no training tomorrow means there's nothing to look forward to to make time pass faster. HOW! :(
THEORY TEST ON MONDAY. I NEED TO GET A B+ AND ABOVE OR I'LL BURN MY WEEKENDS. SOMEONE JUST KILL ME. i know that i have to study really hard for it, but i don't really have much confidence in it.
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HAPPY 22ND BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF! ((: ; Monday, October 11, 2010 19:18
it's ironic that someone asked how old i am today and i almost replied, 23.
it's definitely NOT IDEAL to spend your birthday in camp. though, DO YOU KNOW HOW RELIEVED I WAS WHEN NO ONE THERE KNEW IT WAS MY BIRTHDAY TODAY? it saved me from being traumatized.
okayy. i need to go to jurong east stadium to SPOT THE JUNIOR'S FIRST PERFORMANCE. hope they release earlier so that i can change first before going down. a big NO-NO to go down there in uniform. and i guess i'll probably POOF myself after that. shouldn't go home late every night. SEE HOW NICE I AM.
and, THANKS FOR ALL THE WISHES! i really appreciate the thought. (:
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101010. I LOVE BLAZERS. (: ; Sunday, October 10, 2010 00:55
do you know why after a hard day in camp, i would rush from one end of singapore to the other just for training?
do you know why i would wake up early on the saturday morning, and use my whole day just to go down to school for training?
BECAUSE I KNOW THAT CHEER IS THE BEST DAMN THING THAT HAPPENED IN MY LIFE. AFTER A HARD DAY'S WORK, THE ONLY PEOPLE THAT I CAN TRUST AND RELY ON BELONG THERE.
everyone of you in there. are the bestest people that i've ever known. that's all i can say. (:
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; Saturday, October 09, 2010 17:35
SATURDAY TRAINING WITH LARRY IS SO MUCH MORE FUN THAN WITHOUT HIM!
otherwise, i'd just go there and rot like what i do during the weekdays.
YAYY I LIKE MY TTH. let's see. extension, close by 311010? i shall aim to that. (:
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HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY TO MY SISTER! ; 00:58
GUESS WHO I SAW AT THE POLYCLINIC TODAY! CHAO GENG WARRIORS!! (:
happy 19th birthday to my sister, 59 minutes ago. (:
so, lessons finally resume on monday, at kranji camp iii. i'm not looking forward to it, neither am i looking forward to the same people that i'm going to be seeing. hopefully training would be a good enough motivation to help me pass time faster. and i need to find the fastest route to school from there.
ANYONE KNOWS THE FASTEST WAY FROM YEW TEE MRT TO TP PLEASE TELL ME. (:
training tomorrow. if suhui goes then i'll do my tth. like finally, after i graduate, i manage to do it. it's been a long time coming.
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OUT OUT! ; Monday, October 04, 2010 20:55
kranji is a NOT COMPULSORY STAY-IN camp! you won't believe how happy and relieved i was when i heard that.
don't need to stay in with gays and hearing their vulgarities all day long. although all i can do now is to suck it up. it will snow tomorrow if he stops his nonsense.
it means i can be at training on a more regular basis, which also means that if i don't improve, i can go business and jump already. and crawl to engine after that to jump again.
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:( ; Saturday, October 02, 2010 23:32
attn c for two days. who actually believes that i've been sick these two days? it just goes to show why i can't imagine myself staying-in at kranji.
i think i really need to decide if i want to continue cheering. looking at my current standard, it really doesn't show that i'm a cheerleader for three years. i successfully did 0/14 walk-to-hands today. something i used to have perfected months ago.
HOW NOW BROWN COW.
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