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i realise i dont understand people enough ; Saturday, March 31, 2007 00:01
there's something weird going on.
im asking people who i thought i knew to go out, but in actual fact i dont. you see, i dont really
understand the people i knew since sec1. going out with them doesn't really help you to know them. it just bonds you two together. but thats not the point here.
pick 2or3 people out from my 1c2001 class for example. people who i thought i was really close with. and when you reach a point, you see through them completely. it's like being reborn. they're not the same people you knew anymore. why is that so? if i knew i wouldnt be here blogging away.
seriously speaking, i lost my confidence and trust in people already. this makes me suspicious of their actions thus, conflicts. but do they ever think that they're the cause of this? i tried, no one can say i didnt, to hold on and to fight back. but alas, setbacks bring me back to earth. so rooted that i can no longer stand on my feet. just the thought of it hurts. and i dont know what i can do.
there's no way i want my 3years in poly to be going anti-social, yet i've to curb these thoughts and be positive. optimistic that the past is just a dream, and there's still a long road in front of me to go. if i struggle, i wont sink. and that's probably what i'll try, for now.
i know why i failed you. i know why you left me.
it's because i thought i understood you enough, but i didnt.
and through this 2years, i still haven't learnt my lesson.
i cant even understand my friends.
im sorry if i hurt you.
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