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it's been a year ; Sunday, December 24, 2006 23:20
on 26dec2004 when i was on the boat to some island off thailand, there were news that thailand was hit by a tsunami.
on 20dec2006 when we were travelling back to singapore by car from malaysia, the southern parts of malaysia and singapore were hit by flash floods, some the worst in a century.
whats next in 2008?
i passed 221206. 1 year after everything started. guess im much better now. gerald accompanied me to raffles city where i reanacted everything which happened on that date exactly a year ago. only difference was that you weren't there with me now. still kinda miss everything when i walk through the place. thought of the things we did, enjoyed and played through the place. the drama outside starbucks cafe at the entrance of cityhall station.
i told myself. i believe you were able to get over it. so i might as well do it too. maybe you do not miss me as much as i miss you. somehow i have the feeling that you got back your phone but i just cant find the courage to use my number and message you. thinking that your father would see it and get you into trouble. just a 'merry christmas', would that harm? the telephones work both ways, i told you i would wait for you, but things would never be the same again i know.
whats left behind in me are the memories we had together. the december days which used to be the best times of my life now seem the worst. everyday seem to pass slowly and the thoughts of what we did still runs through my head. guessed i really rushed things too much. i didnt understand you well enough. but i choose not to blame anyone. after all, would that help?
it's just another twenty-five minutes to christmas. the time at bugis junction. carlsberg beer and all. a year ago i would be that happy again.
just wanna let you know that i'll always be there for you no matter what happens, how long it has been. i've waited a year, and i wont give you up just like that. maybe one day we'll just meet in the streets and we'll tell each other, "hi!". jx, you're my miracle.
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