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; Sunday, May 01, 2011 23:39
moving to livejournal.
i'll post the link when i have finished doing up the template. (:
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; Friday, April 08, 2011 17:01
yayy my blog feels so dead! ohwells i think i've given up the drive to update it regularly already.
and i just read the targets on the blazers blog. andand i think that i would fail it miserably. seriously, how much do you want someone to improve within a month. even if the person gyms everyday, you don't see improvements overnight.
so, goodluck to those having to be tested. jiayou.
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wildcards training and tryouts ; Sunday, March 27, 2011 09:32
i skipped blazers sentosa outing to go to wildcards training and tryouts yesterday. and i have no idea why i did that, although i have no regrets going there.
as expected, their standard is very high. and not using my injured shoulder as an excuse, i know that my standard isn't there yet. my skills as a base felt rusty, though i appreciated the praise that i received for my backspot skills. THANKS! (:
anyway, i concluded that I NEED TO GYM MORE. or rather, I NEED TO START HITTING THE GYM SOON.
it's either gym on monday or going to coach's place. HMM..
going to school to see their training on tuesday. wondering how shag would their pt make me.
wed SHOULD BE GOING TO THE GYM.
thurs. may be going to school for workshop and friday it's GYM AGAIN.
well, hopefully.
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anyway, BAS.
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2nd sncc 2011 ; Monday, March 21, 2011 11:34
it's over. it really is.
thank you tpblazers for the wonderful three years that i've spent together with everyone of you. i really thought that last year would be my last but we i got a stay-out vocation in army and we thought of participating in the group stunts category so POOF! i was back for another year!
the seniors have graduated, and i feel that i have graduated again with them. once again, i feel lost. am i going to continue cheering, and if i do, where will i go? how will i convince myself to train with another team with totally new team mates? and yes, i know that i'm not new to these questions. i felt this way last year and i stayed on for another year but this time i know, i will move on. it's a hard feeling. so many wonderful team mates. each and every one of you.
three years. whatever history and hatred would finally be buried and never to be dug out again. isn't that good? it's a brand new start. who wants to remember the unhappiness anyway.
coach akane has decided to stop coaching tpblazers. i guess that would be a blow, definitely. coach had been a motivating and driving spirit to us throughout the past two years. and this would mean a new coach would be coming in. who is he and what are we going to expect?
congratulations to the new committee! captain aloyscious, vice-captain weikee, secretary jasmine and qm daniel. the team has been entrusted into your hands. i cannot tell you how to lead a team. you have to experience it yourself and go along with the flow. make friends, not enemies. and lastly, strive towards a common goal.
tpblazers. i really wanted to join another team last year but i couldn't bear to let myself go. and i guess, i would be stronger this year. i will move on, but i won't forget my roots. if anyone needs any help, feel free to ask me to come back and teach. and of course, i'd come back to visit the team as well!
andireallyloveblazers(:
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losing faith ; Sunday, March 13, 2011 01:16
i remember when paul came and asked me what i felt about the current nationals team and their progress a few days back, i told him that though this year is a bit slower in progress, i have confidence in my team.
after today's training, and what i've thought about and reflected, i think i have lost all my hope, confidence and faith. and i begin to wonder whether it is even worth it to asu, at the cost of everything.
RULES OF CHEERLEADING. i don't know how long will the confidence level last in the flyers. i don't even know if they can trust the bases to catch them when they want to execute a stunt to perfection.
when a stunt falls, everyone just spam their excuses and reasons. what is this. how many times have we seen this nonsense and repeated it over and over again. SAFETY SHOULD BE THE NUMBER ONE PRIORITY.
and what's with that fucked up attitude. i don't see a drop of remorse in you. i don't even think that you're fit to be a base.
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dream high ; Friday, March 04, 2011 12:43
i finished watching all 16 episodes of dream high! it's a really nice and touching show. and it's been quite awhile since i last watched a drama.
i think watching the show now came at a very good timing. it really gave me inspiration for nationals. (:
although i'm on forced leave today, i think it feels quite good because i haven't been sleeping well since they cheated me of my half day off after my atp on monday. today kinda makes up my sunday duty, which feels sucky.
15 days left to nationals. we have a winning routine, we will execute it to purrfection and we will rock the stage. JIAYOU BLAZERS! DON'T BE A SS.
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; Sunday, February 27, 2011 00:48
it's amazing how people can reply tweets and not reply your text, isn't it?
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last day of cny ; Friday, February 18, 2011 00:23
i missed eating dinner together with my family for the last day of cny to go for training. talk about commitment. and i'm rewarded with a cold war.
apparently it appears to me that you only make your presence to stick with her, and for that, i shall not attempt to compete with you. if that's your motive then go ahead.
reality sucks but if you can't beat them, join them!
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if only you ever knew how i felt. ; Tuesday, February 08, 2011 00:15
it's only your first year and you're feeling so sian of the team already.
do you know how many times i really wanted to quit?
do you know how many times i walked out of training?
do you know how many times i wished that i never wanted to go back again?
there are people everywhere telling me to stay, to be optimistic and to push the team together again. and though i know that my mind's set and it isn't possible to do so anymore, i'm still here now, standing before the team.
it's coming to three long years being to a blazerian. if a junior feels sucky, do you know how many times worse a senior would feel?
do you know how much i regret my choice to let go of the team once i knew i was enlisting last year because i couldn't bear to think of all of you in camp every night? and i know that was a very bad mistake and i can't turn back the clock.
do you know that i was asked to join another team countless times and i told them that i want to stay for my team till this nationals?
and now i start to wonder whether i've made the wrong decision to stay.
how many of you actually listen and remember anything that i say. everything that i say to you is a joke, isn't it?
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CNY EVE! ; Wednesday, February 02, 2011 11:14
i'm sorry that my blog is very boring because i'm just pure lazy to upload photos.
anyway, it's cny eve today though it doesn't feel like it. must be because of ns. it makes everyday feel so normal.
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